I feel as if my entire life, my entire story I will always be the antagonist that never gets the “happy ending” My life is a joke because I have every thing a 17 year could want and i’m still miserable. My family is amazing and I hate not being able to appreciate them and realize how good I have it. I hate having a great life and still feeling so empty. it makes me feel like I don’t deserve to have my life and which gives me more reason to want to end it. I’ve always failed to meet the expectations I am given […]
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Life Is A Joke
well lets start this fucking bullshit shall we. Okay so what the fuck do you do when everything you touch or do fails? what the hell do you do when girlfriend after girlfriend leaves you? After they use the fuck out of you? Or roomates who wish to rip you off at every turn? what the fuck do you do when you’ve cried to the point where you can’t anymore? I fucking feel nothing anymore no joy no excitement no passion for my favorite things no expectation for good to happen nothing ever goes right anymore but when something fucked up happens to me it […]
I just keep thinking about suicide. I don’t explicitly have a plan yet, but I have a general idea of what to do. I know we aren’t allowed to talk about this on the board, but even if we were, I’m not sure if I want my mind changed and I don’t want to be stopped. I told myself I’d give myself until I turned 30, but that seems overly generous now. I don’t know when, but I can’t see myself carrying on for that long. I’m not a human being. If I were, I’d feel loved and worthwhile. There would be a point to […]