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Little Game

Borderline (personality),friends, and to much will to end it all…

by agentCooper 5/18/2013

written by agentCooper

Thats where im, emotionaly destroyed, tired,depressed, and in the state when i dont care about my horrible english…

My friends DONT know that i had the Borderline behavioral dissorder. (I had few older people who know it but thats different kind of relationship)

And i dont know if I can trust them, or how toÂ tell it to them, or tell them what I feel or whats going on when iam depressed, or sad, or when i had suicidal toughts…and Â I feel so lonely with feeling that none understand me…

(I had some self-harm things so im usingÂ antidepressants – after one week at center ofÂ crisis intervention, I want to […]

5/18/2013 0 comment

My First Post.

by theoneandonly 3/4/2013

written by theoneandonly

Iâ€™ve just accepted that I will never be the same, not that I was ever right to begin with. I know everyone feels like that. I know this will change. I know everyone is very â€œsympatheticâ€. I also know, none of this changes how I feel. It doesnâ€™t make me feel better that everyone else feels like shit too- it makes me feel hopeless. It doesnâ€™t make me feel better that you think this will change- itâ€™s been eight years so excuse me if Iâ€™m not trusting your psychic powers to foresee my future. I know you care and â€œare thereâ€ for me- well of […]

3/4/2013 3 comments

by jael85 10/18/2012

written by jael85

My Night

I put the cold barrel in my mouth,
To quiet the screams that may come out.
My hands shakeÂ when the time nears,
As my eyes cry silent tears.
I can’t help, but think to say,
Will this reallyÂ be my last day?
I wanted to test fate with a littleÂ game…
Russian roulette, now that is a shame.
IÂ sought outÂ a sign to tell me to stay,
To keep on trying until my golden days.
Three out of five loaded, and ready to go
Two left out, now time for the show.
I pulled the trigger, and let out a small yell.
I was sure,Â right then,Â I had been sent straightÂ to hell.
As the minutes passed, I opened my eyes,
Life […]

10/18/2012 2 comments

We avoid risks in life so we can make it safely to death.

by lovelydyingdreams 6/30/2012

written by lovelydyingdreams

and here we are again. Back to old self-defeating habits. Hope?
What is hope? Is it believing that there could POSSIBLY be something better? Is it waking up and looking forward to the following day?
Happiness?… We use this word as if it’s nothing. As if in a split second everything could go from complete shit, to beingÂ honkyÂ doryÂ and you could be happy for the rest of your life. When someone asks me why I can’t “Put on a smile! Get out of the house!” I honestly don’t even know what to say. Yes, I know how to smile. But I don’t know how to meanÂ it.Â All […]

6/30/2012 3 comments