Abusive, emotional, roller coaster relationship ends after 4 years.
Wonder how it lasted so long? When we weren’t cussing each other out, we were great.
Reason why it ended was because I cheated. Nothing can describe how much guilt, regret, and sorrow i feel on a daily basis. (November)
Since then, I’ve been there for her in every way, I’ve showed her a complete change in every aspect of my personality.
Most people might question her still dealing with me, but its more than luck, I’ve earned it.
We’ve planned a suicide together and aimed for this year but now it seems to be put on a halt.
She’s told me she doesn’t want a relationship […]
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Lost Family
Right now I don’t even know how to put my feelings in writing.
Everything seems so far away. So unreachable. I have registered, and am going to write the entrance examination on January for university admission. But I can’t hold on any longer.
Recently all I want is just to die. I’m fed up of my life. I have lost everything. I have no family. I have cut myself off entirely from facebook etc. I have turned off my phone. I want to die alone.
Yesterday I took a razor and tried slithing my wrist… but I couldn’t. I wasn’t brave enough. When I tried cutting… it hurt. […]
i am starting not to see a reason to go on. i lost my family. my car,my friends, my job, my house, and my girl friend for the past 9 years doesn’t know if she want to be with me in her new live 500 miles away.i was so happy just 3 months ago when i had all those things and now i want to give up. every day i say to my self “i want to go home ” but the place and girl i called home is gone and will never come back. how do i find hope when my dreams and goals […]
So why the fuck would anybody stay around after all this, fuck that, i know im still here but my body wants to die and i dont know how im going to get passed this, its really not worth trying, once im gone, i wont have to worry how im going to live, where im going to get money, nah..i cant, ive lived this way for a year and its not getting any better,
I know that somebody posted about this yesterday but I wanted to put my 2 pence in. So a little context about me, I’m gay and I live in England. I’m also mixed race (basically I’m the klu klux klan/BNP/neo nazis worst nightmare) I’ve suffered some serious abuse in the past and lost family due to my sexuality, as well as some extreme racist abuse! What I don’t understand is why people are still both homophobic and racist today! And for that matter sexist and any other ist!
My first annoyance about the abuse is homophobia and the whole ‘its a choice’ bollocks! No it isn’t, […]
After my marriage broke down Dec 21st 1995, I was locked out of my place. I had lost my family, had no work, and was homeless. The long, and short of it, I went back to the townhouse took a bunch of Ritalin. I went to a motel in Vernon B.C.
and overdosed. Fortunately I ended up in a hospital in Vancouver. I should of died the doctor told me. By the grace of God
I survived.