Hi, I just wanted to share my story about suicide, which I did not commit, and since then have realized the importance of that decision. Everything does get better, I hope anyone who reads that are having thoughts about suicide will reconsider their decision.
The scars runs way down to when I was very young. My dad was a cardiologist and he came home every three days. Always being away from my dad made me frightened of him, although he was a great dad. I was a timid child and was scared of everything, I was told by grandparents that I cried at least twice […]
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Do you know what REALLY seems to get people down? The whole world. We’re always told so much s*** about what a great place this is, and how ‘lucky’ we are to be alive, and how we’re just not grateful for what we have. This may be true, but do they realise exactlu what’s happening in the world? It’s a horrible, cruel, unforgiving bad place where a few good things happen? And what’s worse in noone seems to understand what you mean…I personally get incredibly upset when i hear an earthquake has destroyed, ruined a civilisation and killed so many people; I feel so […]
Im sitting in my apartment listening to the verve and thinking about how lucky i am. I swear i dont im gona stop smiling for a week.
Im happier than usual because i met someone amazing. She is so perfect its crazy. I seriously never thought i would ever meet anyone i could like every again. But this girl has been relentless, i met her in the library and she has been coming up and talking to me for a few weeks now, i have been politely brushing off her advances until now. Last Saturday i was sick of making excuses, i just said look i […]
You cheated on me for another guy, when I thought we were always happy.
You look at me with your cold eyes, and tell me i’m just a friend
2 years long our relationship, it means nothing to you.
You tell me it was because I didn’t treat you right, that’s why you left me.
Can’t you just take the blame? Can’t you see how much I’m hurting?
Can’t you tell me that you’re not a good girl? So my image of you can finally shatter?
I’m holding onto our good memories, you made me so happy
You were so beautiful and so cute, I considered myself lucky
Finally, I said someone to […]
Ever since before i was born almost 17 years ago has my family been fucked up.
I have such high expectaions to live up too, and YES this includes suicide.
My uncle killed my aunt, and then killed himself
My cousin committed suicide left a note for his family that read “I’m in the shed”
I have no fucking way out.
MY PARENTS think i’m okay, i’m really not.
Ever since high school started 3 years ago, i’ve been hiding the fact that i cry my self to sleep and that i wish to die. I’ve been close, so many times but i’m lucky to have such a friend to help […]
there is one person, who i always consider my brother. sometimes more then my brother. today i went to meet him.
he said that on tuesday he will go and meet my ex girlfriend and try to get back us together.
now guys, i dont know whether i should listen to him or not. coz he is been telling me the same thing for last 4 months. and every passing day is making my life more and more worse.
and plus its valentine on tuesday, which will bring back many many painfull memories.
guys, please tell me what to do? should i listen to him?
I literally have no friends and no family. Work sucks and my health is bad. I am over 50 with over $1M in debt.
So why am I so lucky? I just got my 12 gauge short barrel shot gun with oo-buck. Problem solved.
My mood lately has been up and down. But I came to a breakthrough. I don’t want to kill myself anymore (unless I’m feeling real down then the thoughts come back) but overall I don’t. I realize I’m going to die one day anyways so I’ll deal with all the crap til I do. Cause 80 years really isn’t that long (if i’m that lucky).
I still feel like shit, try not to think about what a failure I am but it’s very apparent in my life so not thinking about it or being aware is hard to do.
Momz is irritating once again trying to intervene […]
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