I am sooo lucky!

Sounds messy. Listen, please. A million in debt means you know how to make money and quite frankly, means you can overcome.

No friends, no family, I feel ya. That sucks. It’s hard to make meaningful friendships, I get that. At the same time, you’ve had friends and you can do it again. Nothing in life that is worth having is easy. You know this from your own experiences. You have a choice, please choose wisely.

@uttilin and @kno1: Goodness. Let me give you the benefit of my experience. Guns are messy. Guns are expensive. Shotguns need to be modified for the purpose (unless you have a lot of dexterity in your feet). If you have a gun (handgun or otherwise) it takes literally hours to muster the courage to pull the trigger. You’d think it would be quick and easy, but it isn’t. A gun in your mouth and I promise reality comes crashing in. It isn’t pills or cutting where you have a backdoor exit plan. Guns are finality.

When I was 22 and lived in Detroit, I found a discarded handgun in my front lawn one morning. I was suicidal at the time and picked it up, put it in my dresser drawer and contemplated my end. When I was ready, I checked the back side of the gun to see that there were bullets in the chambers (revolver). For more than two hours (and a bottle of Jack) I held the thing, put it to my head, put it in my mouth. I was ready to go. Finally, I had it in my mouth and pulled the trigger. I’m still here. For better or worse, I didn’t realize every round had been shot off and that only empty slugs occupied the chambers. Call it good or bad luck, but 24 years have passed and I have never been able to bring myself to purchase a firearm for this purpose because I know how hard it is to pull the trigger.

There are cheaper, easier means.