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Facing the dark

by llmorrow75 7/5/2012

written by llmorrow75

It’s been so bad all day today, and now it’s nearly time to face the dark. Alone. My thoughts have been running marathons all day, and I see no sign of the excruciating turmoil inside of me letting up.

Once again, the horrible days where I am so physically sick from this, I can’t move, and so emotionally fucked I start losing track of which thoughts are rational and which are not, are the days when I have no one. The times where I am paralyzed with fear and flashbacks and lonliness… they are the nights that I suffer alone.

I guess I do have one small […]

7/5/2012 4 comments

Suicide note

by KateBell 4/26/2012

written by KateBell

Hi guys…

I’m really struggling right now with a lot of stuff… according to my psychiatrist I’m “clinically depressed,” but I’m on meds and they aren’t helping. I hate myself more than anything else in the entire world. I self-harm (that’s what it’s called, right?)–cut my ankles so no one can see. I have wonderful family and friends who all care about me very much and who would be destroyed if I died, but I just can’t see any other option right now. Every minute of my waking life consists of making plans to kill myself… I just completed my suicide note (it’s a poem… am […]

4/26/2012 5 comments

Sleeping

by Ashley444 1/19/2012

written by Ashley444

Since theÂ beginning of middle school (about seven years ago) I’ve had the worst circadian rythm. In fact… I can’t even dignify it by calling it a rythm. The wordÂ rythm implies that there is some sort of underlying pattern. So, for the purpose of this post, I willÂ refer to it as my sleeping sheduleÂ When people ask about my sleeping schedule, I usually just tell them that I am an insomniac. Which is true… most of the time.Â I find it incredibly hard to get to sleep most nights. However, I don’t think that is the proper label. True most nights, I will get maybe two or […]

1/19/2012 8 comments