Going to a meeting tonight. Pretty nervous. But these drugs have got a hold on me and all my friends use… Might be nice to meet some sober people.
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Free me from this prison
Ive been locked away for ao long
Every day seems to last forever.
Then comes the night
The time when all my toughts are set free
They flow through me aimlessly
Wanting to become a part of me.
I can feel the darkness
Taking over my mind
All i can see is blackness
I feel empty, like there’s nothing to be found.
Within me
There is only despair
I can not see clearly
It feels like life isn’t fair.
And then i think to myself
What feels better
Or less painfull
Than being alive?
A rope around my neck?
A bullet through my head?
Freefalling through the sky
Meeting death at the end?
……….
And then i think to myself
Maybe life isn’t so bad
But […]
Question: have you met any fellow SP members in real life? Specifically, by initiation after interacting on here/ private messaging.
When I said I think about suicide she was pretty baffled, but whatever, I wouldn’t think I was suicidal myself if I didn’t know better. So we talked about it and she told me several options, visiting a psychiatrist, a psychologist, or staying at a clinic for several weeks. I am not sure yet which one I am going to choose, but I have plenty of time till the next meeting.
One thing that bothered me though was this: I didn’t know how to tell her about my suicidal thoughts so I just said I was member of an online-forum … a suicide forum. She wasn’t […]