When I said I think about suicide she was pretty baffled, but whatever, I wouldn’t think I was suicidal myself if I didn’t know better. So we talked about it and she told me several options, visiting a psychiatrist, a psychologist, or staying at a clinic for several weeks. I am not sure yet which one I am going to choose, but I have plenty of time till the next meeting.
One thing that bothered me though was this: I didn’t know how to tell her about my suicidal thoughts so I just said I was member of an online-forum … a suicide forum. She wasn’t amused at all, and she found pretty harsh words for what she thinks suicide forums are about. So I wanted to ask you what you think about it: Does this forum actually help people cure their depressions? Or does it only draw you deeper into your suicidal thoughts? I am thinking about people who look for suicide partners – they definitely don’t profit from this forum in a way that helps them with depressions.
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Well with my experience here, I feel like I became slightly less suicidal since I started coming here, considering I was initially intending to encourage myself to go through with it ironicly. It’s a place you can relate to other people, so I think it really does help you rather than not. I think your councilor mistook it for a pro-suicide site. Cause those are actually the ones that encourages suicide and that stuff.
I never heard anyone doing suicide because of a forum.
I think presence of forums makes it easier then absence of forums because you can’t talk about suicide with real people without consequences.
and technically, this isn’t a forum. It’s a blog where everyone can write their story.
First time I came here, I thought I’d find some ways to kill myself, then I read a lot of stories and relate to a lot of them. And it probably saved my life. At least for a while.
The suicideproject.com people keep this site running because many, many like us benefit from it. Yeah, there are a bunch of foolios posting things that are not allowed according to the rules and the Report This Post pull down menu… But for me this site in particular saves my life. When I found it I was overwhelmed by the amount of people posting their pains. I was not really alone anymore. Also, I can vent here safely, and it doesnt matter if it makes sense to a reader… or whatever anyone cares to reply to a post, because things have, can, and do get bad, and… FUCK, I’m rambling. how I deal nowadays, I guess. But it’s better than dying.
I sincerely want you to find your happy things.
This place is an outlet. Nothing more, nothing less. How you interperate it is down to the individual.
Neither? I mean, it’s nice because other people understand in a way, but I’m just… there. Cure is a strong word, you know? I don’t really think the point is to cure, because that’s…. well, impossible. It’s supportive. Sometimes. There are scant few outlets for such things.
She’s just angry because she has competition. She wants to be the only person you ever talk about suicide with.
Hell, she probably wants to be the only person you feel comfortable talking about how you feel with. She’s like a crazy obsessive ex lover who just won’t stop calling you. O.O Okay, maybe not that bad.
Dear ClareDeLune,
I believe this site is an important tool for many. There is no cookie cutter solution to depression. This site can be part of a multifaceted campaign to happiness. This site by itself is not enough, but can play an important part. Your new counselor could play an important part too. No one outside influence can bee a cure all. I know there are many here, that mean no harm and want you to feel the joys of life again.
Hi ClairDeLune,
I haven’t been on SP in weeks, and found your update after going through the previous posts.
Due to my many bad encounters with psychiatrists/ psychologists (probably it’s the shitty doctors & healthcare system in my country), I have come to hate & despise these people. No matter, I wish you the best seeking psychiatric treatment. It might not have worked for me but could be good for you.
Take care