I had a lazy day just on my laptop today, and have been watching/ reading about things that fascinate me.
The main topic that caught my eye was the theories and thoughts surrounding solipsism and realism.
Solipsism is the thought/ belief that you are the only real thing. That the people you know, the information you’ve learned about history and research going on is just information ‘created’ for you (as if you’re in the matrix kind of idea).
Realism is that things exist whether you are here or not, and realism states that your perception of reality and the things that happen are false to […]
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Mixed Emotions
Tonight I am 12 years old and 5 months and some days old
Tonight I might end it
Tonight I may take some pills
Tonight I will probably get chronic organ disorders
Tonight I cut Myself
Tonight I dream about Happiness
Tomarrow I will wake up fine or with regret
In a week I will be in school, Sad with mixed emotions
In a mouth my good friends will be my worst enimes
In a year I will be closer to death
In a life time I will be dead, Happy
But
Tonight I will be dreaming about Ethan, oh how I love him,he is […]
over the last couple of weeks, ive been depressed, i don’t know why and i dont know how i’ve gotten this way, i sit there and cry, i feel like nothing to anyone, i give up and just want to die all the time. Most people say i shouldn’t think that, because i’m 13 years old and i shouldn’t waste my life away, suicide isn’t the way to deal with it, i’ve cut myself, wished&cried that i didn’t want to be here so many times, people just don’t understand how i feel.. about anything? No-one knows why i’m like this, i don’t even know, i […]
There’s too much in my head. I have too many thoughts too many opinions. I just want it all to go away. I can barely tell my dreams from reality anymore so I stopped sleeping. I’ve attempted suicide 3 times. I’ve passed out during two of them and later woke to survive it. When I was out I just remembered feeling nothing. It was peaceful and quiet. The only reason I feel I haven’t succeeded is because I would hate to leave any sort of burden on someone. I want to go, I want to leave it all behind but if my passing causes someone else to […]
Im having mixed emotions on if i want to die.or not i mean my head is telling me that i need to but my heart is telling me to keep fighting but im tired ive fought all that i can.fight i just dont know what to do
Last week my husband came to see me so that we could talk. Well he came back the next day and then stayed the nite on friday nite. He had told me we were sole mates and would be together for the rest of our lives. I had to work on saturday so he went to help his mother with yard work. He sent me a text message staing he would be to my house after i got off work at 6. He then sent another text message about two hours later that asked me if i would be upset if he didnt come over […]