Three weeks ago, a monday night, I was this close to killing myself. I had it all planned out, no one was home and I was so hurt I was convinced it would never get better. And now, I’m walking on sunshine and couldn’t be happier. i’ve even fallen in love again. And people ask me what my greatest decisions in life has been, and I think to myself: giving life another chance.. and another one 🙂
Lots of love
Its Official. Monday Night I’m Ending My Life! Its What’s Best For Me. Overdosing On Menstruation Pills! They Get You Tired So If I Take The Whole Bottle (34 Pills) Then I’ll Die! I’ve Been Waiting For This Decision For Awhile. Gotta Stay Brave! (:
A new little ‘mini saga’ I’m starting soon I hope. Influenced by the program ‘Notepad’ that comes regularly installed on laptops and PCs. I love the damn thing so much, I use it constantly. So simply, it makes me want to cry because it’s so simple. Anyways, this little mini saga probably won’t be updated as much as the True Story saga. This is basically when I’m really thinking of suicide, and it’s basically the ‘Suicide Note’ that I would probably write at the moment. I’m experimenting, see if it will help with the venting. If it doesn’t help, then don’t expect much from the […]
Okay, So urm… I’ve decided that the only place, really that I should complain about my life is on here. I just don’t wanna hurt the people around me anymore….
On Saturday- A new friend showed me the song Hollywood Undead- Coming back down. I had it in my head for ages, Just over-analyzing it. I had this horrible feeling (partly to do with “voices”?) that we’re all going to die…. I literally went crazy over this.
Monday Night- Nick’s cousin is in a car crash, And unfortunately Dies. R.I.P
Today- I have came to a sort of conclusion that people are going to keep dying until i’m […]
i know i said im not ever going to post here again… but too much has happened since i decided not to post here anymore and im just absolutely terrified of every option i have as of this point… i’ve been so stressed out over the past two/three weeks and i’ve come to having panic attacks more than two times a day, almost every single day. first thing, Sunday night two/three weeks ago i was really struggling and i talked to one of my friends and she came to the conclusion that i was contemplating suicide, even though i didn’t say that exactly. so Monday […]
I never understood why I would one minute be unbelievably happy and the next minute be crying for no apparent reason..
It all started on a Monday after school, which is another reason life had been unbearable. No matter where I went I was the school whore..or at least the freshman whore. But back to that Monday night, my cousin who’s also my best friend was over spending the night. We were picking out clothes to wear for the next day at school. Then my mom came home, she was obviously stressed and started yelling at me. Next thing I know we’re screaming bloody murder […]
I never understood why I would one minute be unbelievably happy and the next minute be crying for no apparent reason..
It all started on a Monday after school, which is another reason life had been unbearable. No matter where I went I was the school whore..or at least the freshman whore. But back to that Monday night, my cousin who’s also my best friend was over spending the night. We were picking out clothes to wear for the next day at school. Then my mom came home, she was obviously stressed and started yelling at me. Next thing I know we’re screaming bloody murder […]
i need to keep busy because every time I’m not I’m more sad and i only think of how I’m gonna be alone forever…
kayso… I’ve told you guys about my break up… it was on january 2nd and ever since that night i cry myself to sleep every night…
theres two other guys….they both like me.. but also live far away… and i know i like them… but it hurts to admit it becuz i feel so guilty… i miss my boyfriend so much…. and they other two guys are trying to cheer me up and make me happy…. and it works… but as soon […]
kay so if you’ve read my other entries you’d know how I’ve been and whats going on.
to recap me and my bf broke up becuz we had to…. i miss him so much.. i think I’m falling apart..
i don’t want to do anything anymore. I’m getting in fights easily. on chat pas on my iPod… i don’t know what to do!
i go back to school tomorrow and finals are coming up.. how am i suposto focus?.. and my friends… i don’t want to talk to them.. i think I’m giving up… some ppl are telling me to try and move on. the thought of it […]
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