It’s a tragedy, really,
How I spent so much time
On you.
You used to make me feel invincible,
Like the world was mine.
But now I’m alone,
With you running through my mind.
It hurts to know that you’ve moved on
While I’m stuck here
Surrounded by my destruction.
The thought of you still keeps me awake.
You’re gone but you’re everywhere;
And you’re not coming back.
It’s time to move on.
I have given up.
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Alright guys and gals, here’s my two cents. I’ve been thinking about offing myself for, say, two years give or take. I wasn’t really sure how I’d do it or anything, but it seemed the most logical outcome of my life and here’s why:
I’m one of those people who, for some reason or another, have been blessed (or cursed) with a high degree of sensitivity. Now, I’m not saying that I get upset over little things. Far from that, I let most shit slide. When I say sensitive I mean there’s always this intense emotion and love towards other people -that’s why I find […]
My best friend, my ONLY friend, is dead. Gone. She left me. And I sat there and watched her die. I can’t unsee it . WHY DID YOU TAKE HER FROM ME? WHY HAVE I NOW GOT NO ONE? Stupid car crash. Why did I have to live? I SHOULD BE THE ONE THATS DEAD, NOT HER!!!!
Sara, I will forever love you and I need you. I really need you. I can’t forget you. You are my sister and I don’t understand why you had to go and I get to live.
She is gone. She is not coming back. I’m alone. Not a soul. I […]
Let’s boon. Gear up, see what’s up. Hmu
We’ll get a gang of heavy bud, enough to smoke an OD
Just in case, loose so much brain cells stay in the jungle
Make a fire, make the fire. I want to play Elder Scrolls Online
But we’re not coming back
Take me to a higher place, then let us vanquish
The water, the fire, the earth
Does anyone ever have the feeling that suicide is just a bad day away?
Sometimes it’ll hit at the weirdest moments, like I’ll be re-edging a knife and once it’s sharp enough to shave hair my mind will skip a beat and suddenly I’m imagining what it would be like to just slice open an artery with it. Not the wrists (too cliche, and I feel it would take too long…plus they can cut the bleeding off at the wrists if they find you in time), like the neck or under the armpit somewhere that’ll bleed quick and can’t be undone. It scares the hell out […]
I havent been on here in awhile but now i need to come back because my world is turning back upside down.The depression is bad and for once theres not a real reason.I just feel drained.My meds were making me hyper in the beginning.I had a sense of happiness and peace for just a moment and now well its gone.Im back to being the me that i dont want to be.The me who feels like a failure and nobody cares.The me that feels depressed.
Im trying to wait befroe doing anything this time.Because my familys going to disneyland together and none of us […]