Im 19. 20 in April.
One thing I would wish for is to feel special again. I realized today that the last time I really felt special was an 8th grade orchestra concert and even that was ruined in the end. I’ve felt like an outsider for years. I’ve felt worthless, helpless, unappreciated, Etc. I just wish, even if just once, I could feel like I mattered, like people actually noticed when I’m around. I wish people would take me seriously, but instead I’m alienated and told I’m over reacting or I’m being stupid… The worst part is the people that are hurting me most […]
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Orchestra Concert
So a school person found out about my suicide and I was sent to the school spycologyest.
And she was like:
“You know if you kill yourself, you go to hell, right?
I was angry with this. I have always had religion in my face, and I almost blew up here.
Then she was like, “What do you have to do tonigh?8
A orchestra concert,” I said.
“What if you kill yourself today or tomorrow?”
Then they sent me to a hospital place for a month.
Do you think she was trying to control me or actually help me? It seemed like it was more for […]