I find myself waiting for the crosswalk light to turn to go, watching all the speeding cars fly by. I like to stand as close to the edge as I can and just imagine the feeling of stepping out into traffic, and the feeling of the impact of the first car to hit me. the only thing holding me back is the possibility of some how surviving that…and all those people watching…me. I was told it only gets harder from here. Right now is harder than I can stand, just kill me now, I hate life.
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people watching
I see smiles, laughing faces, warmth
touching
I see sweetness and an abundance of love
It is everywhere
all around me
I can’t escape those faces, those smiles
and true hearts
I run
cruel cruel world
My deepest desires all around me
strangers immersed in what I dream
cruel cruel world
for although it is all so near
I am galaxies away from attaining it
so I watch
I watch
I watch
New dreams emerge
What I previously yearned
no longer a care
numb
I just wait
I wait
I wait
Atlas! Deliverance!
Bring forth your humanity
give to me what is all our destiny
the quiet peace of forever sleep