next year I’m supposed to go to college
but when somebody asks me what do I want to study I don’t know what to say to them.
I never thought that I would make it pass this age.
Don’t be confused, this isn’t a survivor story, I’m not happy to be here.
I feel so lost and they expect me to think of something to study next year but I don’t want to do anything with my life
I’ve never planned to turn 18 so my future is really foggy, to be honest
Is it not my time?
I was actually planning on dying today… or SOME Monday, hopefully when no one is around (which they are right now, but maybe that won’t actually matter…), but… I’m really scared…
Why am I so indecisive and cowardly? T_T Why can’t I make up my mind with stuff…?
I don’t want to work anymore, I hate work… so exhausting and I hate the people…
I want a future and a girlfriend…
And not to share my methods or anything, but I kind of want to […]