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This song is too accurate when I think of her

by thelost 10/31/2015

written by thelost

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I know that a lot of you probably don’t like screamo, or just can’t understand it, but I was playing some songs I haven’t listened to in a while, and this hit just a little bit too close to home. It reminds me of my ex, and weirdly enough, the girl I’m chasing right now. It isn’t healthy to feel this way, but sometimes it feels so good to just hurt. Anything is better than the numbness I feel each day, which steals all the happiness away, along with my pain. Thanks to anybody who takes the time to read. I know that people […]

10/31/2015 2 comments

An Aching Heart

by thelost 10/26/2015

written by thelost

Can I start off by asking why? Why did we ever use such a convoluted statement like this? Of course it probably stems from the long held belief that love comes from the heart, so heartbreak must reside there as well. I beg to disagree, heartbreak is not coming from one aspect of your life, it’s from everywhere. You feel it in the very depths of your soul. You can’t walk around without seeing something that reminds you of them. God, it sucks so much to be so alone. I won’t say I love this girl, no that’d be overreacting, also it’d scare the hell […]

10/26/2015 2 comments

This is for all you rock and rollers, crash queens, and motor babies

by thelost 10/25/2015

written by thelost

I’d just like to take a moment to address all of the people that have related to my stories. Especially you Sammi, and you MissDysphoria. I write these things from my heart, and you say they’re beautiful, you say that they’re amazing and I can’t help but say thank you. Thank you for taking the time to read what I put down. I owe you everything for this, because I’m just some random person sitting behind a laptop with some shitty stories in his head. You took the time out of your day to read what I wrote and you resonated with it. I don’t […]

10/25/2015 3 comments

Overlook of me

by Cloverse 10/21/2015

written by Cloverse

Hello. I am 15 years old, and I have never met my dad- not my real one anyways. I have a verbally abusive step-dad, and a mother who doesn’t understand what I have been going through.

I am the oldest child of 3, and I have depression.

You may be saying, “well duh, you’re 15” and all the “all teenagers are” but let me tell you that I used to be a happy kid. I was outdoorsy, and social. Now I am a selective mute who hates the outdoors. Actually, I love the outdoors- just not the things in it- if that makes any sense.

I am an […]

10/21/2015 5 comments

Hi..

by IsleyOfTheNorth 10/17/2015

written by IsleyOfTheNorth

Yeah, thats just all im gonna say too lazy too late to type properly sorry just thoughts flowing. This is my first post although i visited this site for like about 2 years never felt the urge to post only to read stories of other people but i saw many nice people around here and i figured i want to help people too but at the moment im just feeling so damn hopeless im sorry for bugging…. i guess i post from now on regulary if you dont mind suicide Community.

10/17/2015 26 comments

FAILED AT MY FIRST ATTEMPT

by IAMALOSTSOUL 10/10/2015

written by IAMALOSTSOUL

So, I’ve been planning on my exit for months via charcoal. Did 3 dry runs and thought I had it down. Finally decided to do it Wednesday night and while laying there, I really thought I was on my way. Put the grill in my room around 7pm, measured the co level and it was up to at least 999 (As high as the meter will read) but figured it would continue to climb. At 1am, I wake up, mainly because I had to “poop” and as I got out of bed, I was stumbling and confused. I was disappointed that I failed and wonder […]

10/10/2015 5 comments

I HATE SUPPORT GROUPS

by A Fairy from the Past 10/7/2015

written by A Fairy from the Past

Irony right? I’m in this one. I’ve been here for the past 4 years, but naturally people won’t even notice me (different account i’m using now so you can’t find me). It’s like that even with real life support groups or other online ones I’ve been to. People just don’t care. I’ve been in one for 1 1/2 years and the other for 3 years. And whilst I’ve made many friends, they’ve stopped caring about me. They don’t even notice me anymore. When we’re alone, they either make an excuse and leave or just sit there awkwardly with headphones and work/read. I try to talk with them, […]

10/7/2015 2 comments

Destruction

by Diablo 10/6/2015

written by Diablo

Okay so here’s the thing, those of you who have read my posts before know that I’m against what mankind is making out of our earth and all the new machinery/technology that is being created. I’m a tree huggin-ground loving hippie, if you will. But, the more I’m in the city the more my hatred grows. The more I wish for some miracle to happen where it breaks down and destroys every bridge, building, house, tower anything. I don’t even want to walk outside my door anymore. Fuck I miss the country so bad you have no idea. (Random thing kinda) As I was laying […]

10/6/2015 4 comments

My story

by okatonshadow 9/28/2015

written by okatonshadow

Okay, please don’t read this unless you are prepared to read a long winded story of my life. Many of you won’t understand and that’s okay.

The relevant part of this story starts in third grade. Back then, everything was bright and shiny, and death unthinkably far off. Sure, I knew it existed, but I never saw it up close. Then, my teacher died of cancer. I get scared, more than the other kids, for some reason. I tell my friends that they should be scared too, that we could die at any moment, and, like third graders, they don’t take me seriously. After a while, […]

9/28/2015 1 comment

From a Great Height

by moneymanhit 9/14/2015

written by moneymanhit

I have researched and read that jumping from a great height is the most effective method of suicide this side of shooting yourself with a shotgun. Yet I worry about the people who might find me: what if it’s some little kid who is then traumatized for life, because of what I did. That would be jacked up.

9/14/2015 0 comment

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by mranony 9/3/2015

written by mranony

What is happiness?

Is it the money you have? Is it the food you eat? Is it the movies you watch? Is it the books you read? Is it the friends and family you have? Or is it the fire in your heart?

If it’s the fire, where can I find it? Can someone please tell me how to find it?

I don’t know where my little fire go. Is it lost? Or is it that I never truly had it.

9/3/2015 19 comments

you r…

by joinel 9/2/2015

written by joinel

you read your old posts. and you realize that they were written two years human time ago. the last post i write was in December. it feeled like yesterday. time is a scum, it won’t last long.

9/2/2015 0 comment

Please, please read. Fuck your opinions. I love you.(Bipolar?)

by FeelingFunny 8/29/2015

written by FeelingFunny

Never been so low, didnt know. That I could fall so far covered in scars. Caused by the drugs I use, I abuse. Shit. It wasnt written in the stars its the life I choose. Whats it to you? If I hurt myself, nobody else, self destruct. Fuck health. Aint no one got time for that…So, Ima grab another sack. Lay back and pray I never wake up. Cause I cant get my cake up, while starin in the face of, this dark hearted demon, i just feel like leaving, everything ive known everytime that Im fiendin. No sleepin no eatin, barely even human. Constant […]

8/29/2015 8 comments

Stay Curious

by operationmintyhippo 8/28/2015

written by operationmintyhippo

I posted this as a comment, but I just wanted to share it with others who might not read it.

I am still alive because of my curiosity. My life is shit right now, but it has to get better sometime, right? I just always tell myself that. It can’t always be like this. I wasn’t made to live this miserably forever. There’s no way. So my curiosity is, “I wonder when life is going to have that magical turning point for me. I wonder what’s going to be that turning point. What’s going to make me the ridiculously happy person I dream of being?”

So my advice to […]

8/28/2015 14 comments

Right now

by Nissy 8/26/2015

written by Nissy

Im sure theres nobody online riht now to read this so you will probably be readingthis when im done. Ive been waiting for years for the right help and it just seems im too hard to help. Im having a good drink and will be walkiing into the path of a lorry wen im numb enough. Dont think there will be too many unhappy faces. Goodluck to the resdt of you. My life was pointledss. Peace out

8/26/2015 5 comments

Why do we do it?

by BluDude976 8/25/2015

written by BluDude976

I often times wander online looking up stuff. Recently I have watched the debates that Richard Dawkins, Sam Harris, and Christopher Hitchens have had with religious leaders about atheism. I have also read scientific studies that say love doesn’t exist. All of this makes me wonder why should we even bother with life at all. If you don’t invent something important or create a cure for something it all seems totally pointless. Are we all living in a twisted bullshit fantasy that never has a happy ending? Poverty, homelessness, and abuse are getting worse world wide and with 9 billion people the world is dangerously […]

8/25/2015 1 comment

I’m Hard From Hearing

by ifuckedthequeen 8/23/2015

written by ifuckedthequeen

hahaha. So let me explain or digress rather. This deaf guy walked by and he had a sign on his laptop bag bravely strung around his neck that read: speak up and speak clearly to my face please, I am hard of hearing. Where the fuck did that expression come from. I’m hard of hearing? I’m hard FROM hearing. I’m hard TO hear. I’m hard BY hearing. What the fuck is hard of hearing. Doesn’t even make sense. This language man. And my own personal joke that nobody else but Hjertsblomst will get: Fuck norwegians. It’s killz by the way. I felt you may not […]

8/23/2015 0 comment

My One Good Day In 6 Years

by operationmintyhippo 8/21/2015

written by operationmintyhippo

I made my first post yesterday, which really helped me, I feel. I was afraid everyone was going to tell me I was stupid and didn’t belong here, but that’s not what I heard. It was kind of nice, talking to people who care, even if they are strangers. Every other time I tried to talk to someone I knew I received a reaction and response that made me want to kill myself even sooner. People here actually took the time to read and even respond to me.

I don’t care if you read my post or not, but you must have read someone’s post here. […]

8/21/2015 8 comments

Mixed emotions

by Enough2015 8/21/2015

written by Enough2015

When i thought this site was making me sadder because i face my depression at a more intense level, i read things that do make me laugh. I am NOT laughing at other peoples misery or posts, I’m not that cruel. Just an entertaining comment here and there.

So i will continue on this site a little longer even though it makes being in denial that little harder. Or maybe I’m just going through a good cycle. Who knows

8/21/2015 2 comments

The Girl and the Shark

by Delisnak 8/19/2015

written by Delisnak

*this poem is in a book i read its called wattpad love i wanted to share it*

The Girl and the Shark

Once upon a time, in the middle of the
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8/19/2015 0 comment

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