my thoughts are exhausting me and I don’t have the strength to function properly to get through this day. But I can’t skip this day either, I have an important dance showing I have to attend and I have to figure out how to get up enough courage to fake that I’m okay during the time I have to be around people. I’m already skipping two classes right now, and I had to leave half way through my dance class this morning because I couldn’t stop crying long enough to dance. I failed my Dance History exam and I’m starting to get really discouraged again, […]
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rehearsals
Today I was so depressed I just didn’t have control over me. I was a friend to someone and let them slap me, because they were feeling down. I’m not a masochist but I don’t feel pain to a certain degree and It didn’t phase me. But after she struck me, something inside me clicked. I ran to the bathroom and I just tried to lighten myself up. I wasn’t in the situation where I could walk around the room upset and in tears. But I cried, and cried. We had call, and I had to go into the Green Room (I’m in a play […]