I am so sick of the ups and downs…. Make a plan to kill my self … Pray for a reson why not Tooo….. Gets the reson…work harder to better life ….Turn happy ….think about it deeply on accident …. But keep trying to be happy….minds starts to collapse in thougths…. Start to cry….. Work harder to keep my self from thinking… Began to fail at any activity at hand…. Decides to take a nap…..can’t sleep….stuck in thougth… Crys my self to masturbation… Hard to mesturbate…..fall to sleep in frustration…… Restart for the next day and repeat
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i feel them cutting but thers nothing in my hands
i feel the blood runing down my vanes and in to the open air
can you feel it
can you smell it
im loosing controle
im not loosing fath
im fighting back genst a brick wall
and for some reson that i dont understand im loosing
im loosing agenst an objet
look at the wold fall
look at the them stand tall
help me rase a call
a fighting withdrol
im lost
not fownd
im dead
not drownd
im cold
not cool
im something that you will never understand i feel
i feel
i feel
i feel
i look at my arm
look at the blood
look at the cut that cerculs my wrist
look at me fall
look
look
look
hes gon at last […]
and heres my reson to day at school the last lesion was dramer after the school day had finisht me and my g.c.s.e. grop stade behind to perfet are pees but on the fienel seen i frees in the midel of a line its like iv lost the power of spech for 10 mind numing secionds i stand ther trying to speek then i start agen like iv held my breth and im exhaeling rely fast then all the guys who are wondring wtf is going on start having a go at me i try to defend my self but im speeking jibrish that made them […]
Hi my name is leeann iam 28 my life is not how i want it to be iam a sweet girl and my family is not happy about it i do so much for them some times i just want to go and end my life its like there no reson for me to be here if they no want me  i driven them around go to the store for them do this and that and nothing no thank u or any thing.Iam so tired of my life i cry and cry very nite and i cant even talk to them about any thing cuse […]
Okay, Here i go i am 15 year old girl i have been cutting my self since i was 10 and ive had enough i cant take it no more i wanna die just dont wanna hurt the people who i love but i have to many resons to do it i live with the pain on me every day that i wasnt even suppost to be here in the first place i was a mistake the only reson im here is my mom was to far along for an abortiuos i dont live with her i got stuck on my grand parents since i […]
Okay so here the turth im not a virgin even though everyone in my family thinks i am so i was 13 when i was put on birth control because my grandma thought i should be incase and she thought i was a virgin but i was then about a month later i was at school and started cramping really bad so i go to the nurses off then she call my grandma and tells her she thinks im having a miscarrge my grandma cursed her out the turth is it was true i didnt know i was preg and i was young and stuipd […]
a dark hole .. falling down ..
i miss the days ..she  was around..
shes still here but the feelings are gone..
a kind of love that didnt last long..
before had no reson no life to hold on..
i has torn apart at the very bottom..
scars that would never be forrgotton..
i hope you know you where my only reson..
my only hope .. only smile to beleve in
and even though.. its true you where taken ..
i hope you know you gave me heven…
your by best friend.. i know you care..
you numbed the pain i could not bare..
only you coud give me laughter..
and .. i know that where not right together..
but […]