Hello, my name is Zach. I stumbled upon this site and I figured I would post my story here as well, hopefully It may help someone. So anyways, this story is about my step brother Max. Max was a wonderful and caring boy, he had a deep passion for art and liked to skateboard with his friends at the local skatepark. Seemed like the perfect kid right? But the sad truth is, much like many young people in america, he suffered from major depression. To my knowledge he was not bullied or anything in high school, His parents got divorced but it seemed to be […]
I have been talking to a few close friends about this but not yet written it down, this site is a great idea, ive just joined and im looking forward to reading more-its somewhat refreshing to not only know others out there are feeling like ending their life but that interaction is also possible- which is important.
Im a mature student in my finial year of uni, i dont really drink or do drugs anymore, its taken me 8 years to get to this point as my teeneage years and general social circles are all based on booze.drinking was making me miserable, so i stopped or […]
I am suffering through this because my niece… she used to bring some light into my world but because i cant feel anything but saddness and fear anymore, im not sure if i love her…shes only one year old right now and i cant leave her be because she needs me, she has actually called me mommy and i cant stand […]
i just signed up on this website and im happy to have found it, i just wanna know how to feel better about myself, and talk to people that wont make fun of me, i know my problem’s arent as bad as most but they build up inside and it’s gets to where i wanna cry….but i cant i dont want my family to know about my saddness or know how alone i feel. i just feel so un-welcomed to this earth, im only 17 i know i pronly dont have room to talk but…its ture, they say love will come but does it? they […]
when i see people sad and depressed on here it makes me sad and depressed. i decided im not going to write one note but a to couple people i actually love. one of the only things that makes me not want to get hit by that train, hang myself, blow my brains out. is the few people have been saving me all of this time. one of my best friends has been in boot camp. i dont want him to find out. i hope by the time he comes back everyone will have forgotton me, he will have forgotton me. i never go through with this. but i know how badly […]
things with my deppresion and life in general have felt overall better recently, but it is a daily fight, its like the celldweller song-birthright “holding on until my hands and mind start bleeding” it feels like they are bleeding, beeding pain. im getting tired anmd i can tell, everytime im having a bad day i have to fight every waking moment and its making me tired, what if i slip back and end up so deep or deeper as i was before? honestly im scared, all these what ifs are running throught my mind, im getting tired of the fight. “hes on his way to […]
Since i was a kid, i was taught to always treat everyone nice, be helpful, and loving. That true joy comes from making others happy, that if you are good and nice, good things will reflect back on you, that the harder things are the better chance you got to prove how strong you are in fighting against the evilness of the world, i was trying to be the super hero which will spread love and care.
Myself always came second, didnt matter, as long as i can make those who i can happy, I can stand against those who hurt me.. The pain began ever […]
For 7 months i have been in this state.
at first it started as saddness,but as time went by it turned into pain and numbness.
I turned to a friend who understood how i felt. But he kept telling me to wait a little bit, and i wouldbe okay. But ive waited to damn long, and everything just keeps getting worse! Im sick of it!
first off let me just say how happy i feel finding this website
(albeit a little random, just googled cold and alone)
Like im sure everyone else on this website my life story is a bit too long to include on my first post,
so i’ll try and keep it to the point.
I had a somewhat happy childhood. I did have sexual contact (mostly with other boys around my age at the time)
when i was still very young. Then the infamous 8th grade came along and everything changed.
I had to dress a certain way, talk a certain way, be cool etc in order […]
just feeling so down today……….. hae been seeing a psychologist and my thoughts of self mutilation and suicide went away for a while but the past couple days ive just felt terrible and hae been thinkin of so many ways to just make everything stop. anyone know any tactics to help get back into a good mindset or to stop the saddness??
Peace was stolen from me and life was forced upon me Jan 13th 1972… The result of a lunchtime accident… My Dad was in a popular band and a mean drunk’n drug addicted ass. My mom was a doormat… The molestation began when I was 4 and went on for several years by a family friend… I was a child porn star… I remember running around my dads parties drink the drinks people would leave unattended… I took my first hit of weed in kindergarten… I had 2 older brothers.. My dad would beat us with jump ropes, fists and bang our heads together or […]