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Second Thoughts

Ambien

by cyanidesofmarch 5/8/2013

written by cyanidesofmarch

Has anyone else ever taken an Ambien? One pill knocks me out within 15 minutes. That’s not the interesting part. The interesting part is that it wipes out all memory for those few minutes leading up to unconsciousness.

I know it would take at least 1000 pills to kill me, so that’s not what I’m posting about. But something about those few minutes of blackout is interesting. People who have seen me on ambien say i just lie down and I’m out cold, no amout of noise or shaking can get through.

What if, for example, I were to take a dozen pills and then go swimming […]

5/8/2013 3 comments

Sometime I Wonder If Anyone Would Understand Me!!!!

by Unknown4Life 12/29/2012

written by Unknown4Life

Im 12 years old and i know you are wondering what a twelve year old can POSSIBLY Â have gone through that she wants to commit suicide well ive been bullied ive made a big mistake once and i did that mistake again i dont know why but i did it and i never let my thought out i always keep them locked in cause im scared..scared of what people will think..scared if i will get hurt..scared i might end up killing my self if i did say something but then again if i dont i will probably kill my self no one understands me NO […]

12/29/2012 2 comments

DESPAIR

by nemo 9/21/2012

written by nemo

In a fleeting glance I look normal. I have two great kids under 7. I volunteer at school, teach a after school art class, president of PTA. I cook wholesome and tasty meals, bread and cookies to die for. My husband is a physics professor and we have been married 10 years.
I scrapbook, write, read and jog/bike. I meditate and do yoga. Until three months ago I also worked 3 jobs, most at night when kids were asleep or at school so I could be home with the kids. I did play dates, taught my children French and sign language.
Then one night I […]

9/21/2012 5 comments

the weight of sadness

by NotReallyHereAtAll 9/3/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

It feels… heavy, I suppose. Like everything weighs a lot more than it really does, like just getting up takes a lot of effort, like my bones are so heavy that I only move when I absolutely have to. Sometimes I have to talk myself into doing tiny, simple things that shouldn’t take a second thoughts, but they are so exhausting at times and dragging myself through the motions takes so much effort it’s barely worthwhile any more. And I’m not heavy at all, I just feel it. I don’t feel as light and as free as I actually am, even though I know I […]

9/3/2012 3 comments

I Don’t Believe In Him

by Callmestevo 6/26/2012

written by Callmestevo

You know how everybody says â€ God put you on earth for a reasonâ€ Well â€¦ . . I truly believe that â€œGodâ€ put me here by accendent, and hopefully he realizes his mistake and takes me back. Sure Itâ€™s been fourteen years and one month that iâ€™ve been on this planet. But iâ€™d happly give my life away to be anywhere eles, just not alive. But the thing is I donâ€™t believe in this guy named â€œGodâ€ I donâ€™t believe in the â€œBibleâ€ ethier. I doubt that a man had magical powers and; created nature, created people, created food, created everything on earth and […]

6/26/2012 7 comments

I know how, I know where, but when?

by Sarah 5/20/2012

written by Sarah

It’s not at all that I may be having second thoughts, contemplating whether I have made the right choice or not. It’s just although I don’t want to be here now, I feel sad that the old me can not continue living. I guess I just wish that the events leading up to my decision had not have happened. I could continue to live my innocent and naive life, unaware of its dangers and pain. Should I do it tomorrow, why not in a few days? I don’t want to be here anymore, and I am 100% sure of that.

5/20/2012 6 comments

Just Waiting

by skittles1104 7/2/2009

written by skittles1104

I’ve always known that I was depressed.Â But i put a good wall and hid it from everybody.Â At a glance, nobody would guess how rotten and dead i feel inside. I’ve read websites for “help” but honestly, I dont want help.Â I’ve been depressed and suicidal for so long.Â I have never felt wanted or truly happy.Â If at one point I was happy, everything would soon come crashing down.Â And I’d be in my bed crying myself to sleep, reaching over to get the scissors and start cuting on my arm.

Just like today.Â I was truly excited to go on a vacation with […]

7/2/2009 5 comments