ive learnt how to block everything up now, not to say how you really feel… people honestly dont care. but im just writing here because i need to get it out, as soon as i speak about stuff i close up and change the subject but writing it, i can cry as much as i want and still its all comprehensible.ok my life is great, my parents care about me, im a scholar with a grade 8 for LAMDA and % for theory of music. I have a passion; horses, everything to do with being outside, nature, science, english lit and lang.
But i hate […]
I act like everything is fine. I laugh at people’s jokes, I do silly things with my friends and act like I have a carefree life. It’s funny though, When I come back home, I just turn off that mental switch. Then suddenly I break down. I feel alone, empty, tired. I can’t exactly describe how I feel into words. It’s like I have two different me’s.
The one for the public, and one for myself. Only if they knew. Only if.
User muspelhem posted this in a comment earlier today – it’s a good read and worth the few minutes it takes to read and ponder objectively –
http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-harsh-truths-that-will-make-you-better-person/
For the record – I’m an atheist – but that doesn’t change the relevance of the following parable:
Crosses To Bear
A young man was at the end of his rope, seeing no way out, dropped his knees in prayer. “Lord, I can’t go on,” he said. “I have too heavy of a cross to bear.”
The Lord replied, “My son, if […]