The only reason I am living is for others. My family, friends, and people I dont even know. I would have committed suicide by now, but ive told my friend not to tell anyone so if i end up doing it the burden will be on his shoulders. I dont know what to do. I havent told my parents or anything because i cant face them. I am a coward they would feel terrible, they would feel failure as parents if i told them. My life seems to have no meaning. Seems that nothing can make me happy. When something does make me happy it […]
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Sleeping Pill
I’ve wanted to die since I was 17. That was the first time I tried but I was just sick all night.
I remember all the negative about the past and it is hard to concentrate on the positives.
I took speed a couple of weeks ago and felt like I had instant happiness. People said that I made them laugh. If only they knew how I want to be out of this eternal pain.
I have a friend who is always saying that she doesn’t eat properly. Well I don’t. I exist on nourishment drinks and bananas cos I have no appetite.
My psychiatrist is good. She is […]
At work….can’t stop crying between patients. Â My wife left me about 7 months ago. I finally got to talk to her and she acted like a total stranger with me. There was apathy on her side. She hates me …even thought i didn’t do anything to her…cheating…hitting…nothing. She just stop loving me. I am taking med now..but they are helping just a little bit. I still want too take sleeping pill and never wake up. My wife wouldn’t give a shit anyway….i am death to her….why not be dead in real life then