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Awake

by brodie3750 9/16/2015

written by brodie3750

being awake doesn’t bother me. I do rather enjoy life. But sleep is just so much better. Something about going to sleep is appealing. If it weren’t for the fact you had to inevitably wake up, it would be the perfect feeling.

Does anyone else feel like every time you wake up to a new day, a little more of you is stripped away? If I could turn down sleep, I probably would. Because every time I wake up, I slowly fall apart more. If sleeping wasn’t a factor then what is left of me would remain in tact. But you can’t stay awake, not forever. […]

9/16/2015 2 comments

Hell

by Shattered Night 9/12/2015

written by Shattered Night

i feel very very empty my happiness is leaving me i can feel it happening. i want peace i want death but im so afraid. i know im going to hell. ive had two dreams about me dying and going to hell and it was horrible but i know hell it a lot worse. but im slowly getting ready to experience it because it is where i belong. but i dont want to die yet because this is the only chance that i get at living and i have a lot that i want to do yet im so tired. i want peace. i want […]

9/12/2015 0 comment

Insignificant

by Freakinblackhart 9/3/2015

written by Freakinblackhart

So everyday is a complete blur. It doesn’t feel like I’m living, it just feels like I’m enduring. I can’t get anything right. I have the help I need like counsellors and medication but it doesn’t make any difference. My dad and his gf think I should just fake a smile and slowly accept it as it will brighten up my day. No, because I always get the gut feeling that I’m not allowed to be happy. Not with funny incidents, not jokes, not happy with myself. Just not happy in general. I can’t be. Every time I am I seem to fuck something up […]

9/3/2015 4 comments

spiral downhill

by haybear1203 8/31/2015

written by haybear1203

6 months ago my best friend died. She had an asthma attack in the middle of the night. That is what put me over the edge. Before that my dad died in a car accident. When my best friend died my life spiraled. That same month I went to two other funerals. I started taking drugs to help me sleep. I had a short circuit. I blew up on my mom. I went to stay with my grandparents for awhile. I just feel like I’m being forgotten. At lunch my friends don’t notice if I’m not there, my family doesn’t mind that I hide in […]

8/31/2015 2 comments

2nd attempt aftermath

by Luxson 8/31/2015

written by Luxson

I’m just so tired at this point that I don’t know what to do with myself. Two days ago during my two best friends wedding to each other I ducked out early, filled my car with all my belongings and was about to drive off and burn it all. I had bought two propane tanks I had intended to rupture, and a jerry can full of premium gasoline (which for some reason seemed funny being that I only buy low-grade) which I had intended to pour on everything including myself. It was going to be a loud painful and grizzly death but that’s how I […]

8/31/2015 4 comments

situation assessment

by sadsadist 8/28/2015

written by sadsadist

…lots of bullshit cant trust my girlfriend shell see this probably as she often posts on here she hurts me when i trust her i care about her so much ive always tried my hardest i dont understand how she can take advantage of me im slowly losing what friends I still have, struggle is becoming more stressing always tired can’t think clearly always radical thoughts even for my standards I hope I make it through this year to reach my road to glory this is just a prologue to the true great story

8/28/2015 1 comment

I can’t handle it anymore….

by g_aloisa_23 8/24/2015

written by g_aloisa_23

I can’t take it guys…. I can’t do it…. I’m so low right now.. Everyone is out and having fun and enjoying themselves without me and I’m sure no one will even notice that I’m not there, just like if I died. No one would notice that I wasn’t there. Maybe I would be a sad story to tell your children ten years from now about mental illness or what happens when people aren’t loved. Maybe those that I know will cry for a day, maybe they’ll mourn for a week.. And then it’ll be over and people will forget, slowly or quickly. Everyone will […]

8/24/2015 5 comments

Fuck-up

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 8/21/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

That’s me. A giant fuck-up. A huge mistake. A waste of space. Nothing important.
That’s how I feel today.
I accidentally came out to my mum today. She asked a rather leading question, which resulted in me accidentally telling her. She didn’t say anything back, and continues to treat me as normal. I wish she had said something, because I have all these thoughts of what she could have said or thought, and I feel like these thoughts are slowly destroying me.
I wasn’t ready to tell her, and I feel like I have been forced to come out, and it’s really upsetting. I feel […]

8/21/2015 1 comment

life sucks

by james_downey101 8/2/2015

written by james_downey101

depression is slowly killing me.

8/2/2015 9 comments

This is shitty

by blue_daisy 7/31/2015

written by blue_daisy

Even though I just made this new account I wanna start out with some personal things because I can’t tell anyone face to face these issues.

Here I go, I have been questioning my gender for a couple of months now.

Since last July I have had a deep connection in a weird way with the LGBTQ+ community. I watched the Fourth of July parade and for some weird reason I cried. At that moment I realized I was bi.

Skip to January of this year and I start to see people at my school who are genderneautral or trans. I didn’t get it but then I realized […]

7/31/2015 3 comments

The Girl That Is Me

by asunayuki1 7/28/2015

written by asunayuki1

The girl that hides all behind a mask.

Fakes smiles and laughs when she gets hit and falls to the ground.

Telling her self its ok because one day she will be free.

But late at night crying and cutting her wrists to shit .

She ends up laying down and watches the blood leak from her wrists and wispers why me.

Why am I hated so much? It’s realy hard to breath in this fucked up world .

Why do guys hit me is it because I am nothing ?

Why dose my father hate me so much why cant he leave me be .

He tortured me abused me […]

7/28/2015 10 comments

Dead Inside

by 000000 7/11/2015

written by 000000

Hi.

I’d just like to share my story.

I’ve been feeling suicidal for quite sometime now. For whatever reason, it began when I was 10 or so. I’ve never acted upon it, due to lack of resources and simply being afraid.

When I was younger, I was basically a model child. I listened to my parents, helped them out, got near-perfect grades, etc. And then we moved.

I honestly don’t think the move was what caused these thoughts, but it started about a year after. I can feel myself deteriorating. I don’t want to leave the house anymore. My grades are dropping from 90’s to low 80’s. At first […]

7/11/2015 4 comments

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