Tool has one of the most intelligent lyrics of any band I ever heard. The lyrics that jump out to me the most is “why can’t we not be sober, just want to start this over, why can’t we drink forever”…..then the next line is “why can’t we sleep forever”. – I can totally relate. I wanna drink forever and wish I could sleep forever. It’s a song that can have many different meanings in accordance with people’s personal experiences. It’s deeper than drug or alcohol addiction – for me, I want to just go and sleep forever. Being sober hurts because of my mental anguish.
Also a line that jumped out to me is “I am just a worthless liar, I am just an imbusal, I will only elevate you, just enough to bring you down” – for me personally, I see it as all the people who built me up for one huge let down. Recently and all my life there has been toxic people in my life that elevated me, gave me a false sense of hope, and than brought me down, leaving me in a worse place than I was before. They was worthless liars.
All I wanted was love and to find that special someone ya know. That someone who will love me for me. Someone I can have and to hold. I know I’ll never get that. I have trust and attachment issues due to being used so many times in my life. I want to kiss lips, but since thst will never happen again, I kiss the bottle. I want to be held, alcohol and xanex makes me feel as though I was being held. Makes me feel love even though nobody is there. Strange dynamic indeed.