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Social Phobia

Trying to end it with N – A Social Anxiety story

by Slipknot83 1/26/2016

written by Slipknot83

I have Social Phobia ( aka social anxiety), I always been the shyiest guy in school, college,diferent jobs. Missed classes in college cause of it, quit jobs cause of conflit due to bad comunication with others. Been to many job interviews and failed because of being so nervous, that since 2010 I tought I have to quit life, didn’t know when or how, but had to.

So I just tried to meet new places and walk a lot, while also searching for ways of dying. All of them seem painful so I ended up thinking maybe I could just buy some syringes with a large width […]

1/26/2016 7 comments

Feeling worthless…

by deathismyonlyoption 12/16/2013

written by deathismyonlyoption

I feel like everything I do is a mistake. I say things that are awful sometimesâ€¦ but itâ€™s only because I hate feeling like I have to bottle up my emotions and opinions. I am just going to write exactly what causes me to feel this way and I am not looking for anyone to make me feel justified or anything. I just needed to vent somewhere and writing in my journal wasnâ€™t helping me. I realize that my problems are nowhere near as bad as some of those on here, but I needed to put my feelings out there and feel like someone […]

12/16/2013 3 comments

My story.

by After.Effect 8/22/2012

written by After.Effect

I have had 16 years of anxiety ridden life. The social phobia has gotten the best of me, I have no friends and am not in school. I stopped going last year in October.. After I ran away.

I was living in a dilapidated house. The ceilings leaked, the water pipes didn’t work, there was no heat. It had been less than a month that we lived there and we loved there due to transitions of homes. We were waiting for things to go through with the house we would be renting. Anyways, I was dealing with that and then school. I have no friends, […]

8/22/2012 2 comments

The terror of a phone

by Purmi 6/29/2012

written by Purmi

I haven’t been paying my student loan. I CAN’T pay my student loan. Dad found the letter from.. well, whatever that place is called in english.

Mom has me calling the student loan people, but i can’t. I can’t dial the fucking phone!

When she first confronted me, i just.. flipped. Started crying and what not, and she said some mean things, saying how none of her kids ever grown up, and she’s right. I’m 21 and i can’t make a fucking phone call.

In the end i wound up screaming to her about how I’ve been wanting to kill myself since i was 12, but […]

6/29/2012 5 comments

I deserve to be hated, I don’t deserve love

by StrandedSelkie 6/26/2012

written by StrandedSelkie

That’s what I’ve learnt in life.Â I don’t deserve to be loved, I must be the worst person ever, thus all I deserve is pain and misery. I’m tired and today was hell, so bare with me if I don’t make much sense. Ever since I remember I’ve wanted to be loved and accepted.. and ever since i remember, I’ve been denied. My mother has always hated me. She’d never say a nice thing about me, she was convinced I’d only exist to ruin her life, cause her misery and she still accuses me of having tried to kill her when i was 5… nobody […]

6/26/2012 2 comments

Cockroach

by straw 6/16/2012

written by straw

Last time I spoke with another person was 14 months ago. And I don’t really suffer from social phobia or anything like that. I think I’ve become Human Cockroach. Kafka wrote about it but I used to think it was a joke or huge exaggeration. And sadly there is not even a trace of struggle here. I could really appreciate it, struggle equals life. Instead I’m trapped in airless wastelands. Why I’m still alive, when all hope is long gone, that’s truly a mystery to me.

6/16/2012 4 comments

I need help…

by Vain 5/2/2012

written by Vain

I’ve been feeling suicidal for about two years now. Read the text wall if you care enough…

Read the recap if you won’t read this, but I’d appreciate it if you did.

I’m only 13, and I’m currently in the 7th grade. My therapist, who came to school to attend me weekly, told me she believed I had depression in the 6th grade. I had discovered the topic not long before she told me this. I told mom when she came to pick me up, she didn’t buy it. It started getting worse after a while, but I wasn’t being treated. Only after a few months later […]

5/2/2012 5 comments

When you don’t belong

by spartan2276 4/2/2012

written by spartan2276

This POST is intended to shed some light on the feeling of not belonging to this world/being part of it. If you have a mental illness such as bipolar or schizophrenia please take your medication(s).

When I was 16 I tried to commit suicide if I would have succeeded I would not have known the beauty of seeing each one of my girls birth or watching them grow; Not known what it would have felt like to fall in-love nor see how great of a career I would have. I tried to get rid of myself simply because I did not belong.

After the incident I visited […]

4/2/2012 29 comments