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All these words spilt trying to articulate sorrow, anguish.
I don’t want to add to that. I’m writing anyways.
I fell in love, nearly two years ago. Head over heels. Completely knocked out with love. Rare sunshine, and walking home from school, him my shadow. We met up and kissed, but you see I was worried in case people gave me sh*t for it, I was fourteen and he was sixteen. Obly two years, and I don’t know why I let it stop me from being with him. So for a month we texted blah blah bah and […]
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Solace
thoughts of suicide have become my happy place. before i go to sleep i think of what it would feel like (or not feel like) to be dead and gone, it’s become my solace. i forgot how to be happy. i see nothing to live for. i just underwent a rather difficult breakup. it came at a time when i needed him the most. things were pretty bad at home and i was having a very hard time at school. we broke up during my exams and so I’ve definitely failed those.
i cant cry myself to sleep anymore because it’s pathetic. i don’t pray […]
So I’ve ended up isolating myself socially, to some extent. I stopped going to work, and I stopped being honest with the people who actively try to make me feel better. I just say that I’m okay, although I don’t really know how I feel. I try not to think, because when I start doing just that, I remember how much of a failure I am, and that I really should just end it. And that’s the only form of solace I’ve got. “Well, it might be bad, but I could always kill myself, so it’s okay I guess”.
I don’t really want to tell anyone […]
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