Im trying hard to be the best person i can be but my thoughts are elsewere.Elsewere as in on suicide.I dont even have a good reason for wanting die.But i cant stop thinking about dying.i want my thoughts to quiet down.So i dont have to keep doing this.But right now i have this urge that just keeps saying do it.do it..Its not voices rather a feeling.Its night here so im especially tempted to drink the bottle of pine sol.I dont think im going too.But its very hard not to at the same time.My therapist is threatening to lock me away somewere permenately if i […]
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Strange Place
There was a moment in my life, where I stopped wanting things, stopped loving things,I just feel empty, joyless and disappointed.
Nothing seems to fulfill the void in my heart. Where you just can’t move forward, you stop walking, watch everyone move on and leave you behind and you’re just standing there, waiting for nothing.
The pain grows and you can’t even look back nor go ahead in your life. its seems as if you want to understand what you want, where are you going first, and you look at everyone, they don’t care, they just want to level up, and i wonder, do they even know […]