The word itself makes people stop and see what it says. It’s so eye grabbing and it captures most everyone’s attention. Saying you’ll commit suicide is easy. Setting up suicide is easy. But actually doing it? Actually jumping off of a building? Actually pulling the trigger? Actually slitting your wrists? It’s fucking hard. To know that your life is there; So vulnerable in your hands. It’s all in front of you. And it’s all up to you in that very moment. Whether you live, or you die.
What’s it like falling? Just free falling and all of a sudden, nothing. Or to pull the trigger […]
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i asked myself 1st thing this morning when i woke up. my “story” is not worth typing about – you already get it: it’s depressing. i’ve been suicidal for a few years now, but this will be my 1st real attempt. the “helium method” as i refer to it (no access to guns, i have plenty of pills but those have a TERRIBLE track record of successful suicides). i feel ready to go.
yet i have reservations. i think about my family.
i don’t love them, to me they are like strangers i just happen to know many things about, i do not feel connected or bonded […]
I have absolutely had it with this world. This society. The sheep that live around me. The doctors so greedy for money that they slap a label on me, without doing proper investigation, that follows me for the rest of my life. Let me elaborate a bit.
At 16 years old, I was having trouble coping with the pressures of adolescence and growing up in an abusive home. One day the pain became too much to bear and I broke down. I was taken to a mental hospital. (Of course a mental hospital. Because people in this day and age are too self-absorbed to HELP a […]
Whenever I read about suicide, including on this site, there is usually a page that tries to talk others out of suicide. Of course, I understand that suicide can be really traumatic for the deceased person’s loved ones. But that argument assumes that a person has close relations with family and friends. If you do not (and some of us don’t) then your passing won’t be deeply felt by anyone.
Secondly, if you have family and friends and you are suffering and you reach out to them and they do nothing, then you’ve done your job. You’ve made others aware of how you feel and they […]
So I don’t want a wake or funeral. Â I want absolutely zero fuss made about my death. Â But I feel bad killing myself and taking all these healthy organs with me… so I think, I know, I will donate them. Â So I had this idea to do it in winter on a snowy day, so my body would stay fresh until I was found…. But it turns out that hospitals/universities/chop shops won’t take suicides… Also, Â if you donate your body to one of these chop shop organ/body donation companies, they dole the pieces out to the highest bidder, making at least $200,000 per body. Â The […]
I bought a regulator today on ebay for 70 bucks. It’s supposed to work for helium, ******** and argon. Made by Lincoln Electric. I called the welding supply a couple weeks ago, I think it’s a bit more than $100 for a smaller sized ******** tank. I’m undecided as whether to go ******** or helium, and feel somewhat lost though I am doing the research online as to how to go about this. I am pretty scared. I’ve chickened out so many other times, overdosing, trying to get my nerves up to be able to jump from a 7 story parking structure. Though after looking […]
Hi,
Since i was the age of 12, i got depressed and i still am today, (23 years now). I tried around 6 suicides attempts but all failed.
And the worse part is, my parents and friends dont even know after 11 years that i am depressed. They dont have a single clue.. Parents always know whats wrong with their children. Dont they care or am i hiding it to well
I try so hard..
But it’s never enough.
Nothing is ever enough. Not for him, not for her, for them, for me..
With each day that passes I feel like I am slipping away more and more. I just want to be happy.
You know it’s funny, I once got a fortune cookie and it told me
“If you want the rainbow, you must tolerate the rain.”
But now I can’t help but wonder. How long will it keep raining, you know?
1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 6.. 7 gone.
Suicides, murders, overdose, AIDS.
It’s not fair, why them?
Then dad was never […]
So I have like these 2 groups of so called friends at my university. im a sophmore and i have a long way to finishing school. and one group consists of two girls, and the other one of like ten people mostlyt guys, whom last year ive been friends with em . but now like thigns changed beacuase of me and basically they hate me casue im with the other chicks.. and its my fault. and on the other hand im too deppressed with some personal and family issues which makes me not want to talk in schholl. or do that well. i dont feel motivated… hate the […]
I’m 23 years old. I’ve been depressed for over a decade. I attempted suicide at the age of 12, trying to hang myself with my bedsheets. I gave up because I had nothing I could hang myself from that would support my weight.
All through my school years, I never seemed able to make friends. I kept to myself and read books.
Up until recently- maybe two years ago- the exact reasons for my depression were unclear to me. I finally figured out that I was transgender, and I managed to push past the stereotypes on TV of “men in dresses, heels and heavy makeup”, and met […]
Many of us have been told, “Your problems aren’t that bad. They don’t add up to suicide,†or, “If you only took 15 pills, you weren’t really serious.â€
We have a condition that causes others to feel uncomfortable. They reduce their discomfort by using denial, belittlement and minimization on the seriousness of our situation. While most of this denial is due to their fear concerning the possibility of our death, a part of it has another source. They may also have had or be afraid of having bad periods in their own lives, and their denial on our vulnerability to […]
Apparently several studies have independently reached the conclusion that trans-fats are linked to depression. (http://www.smh.com.au/lifestyle/diet…127-1a6vy.html)
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Spanish researchers who followed 12,059 people over six years, analysing their diets, lifestyles and medical problems found those who ate the most trans fats, which are commonly found in pastries and fast food, had a 48 per cent higher risk of depression than those who did not eat trans fats.
I find this intriguing because I googled such a link after knowing that
1) trans-fats have been known to substitute for DHA in the body (thereby lowering DHA levels) and in the brain, when mice were fed experimental diets from […]
Chapter Two of my story, which began with, “On Wednesday Night, I broke.”
On Friday, December 2, I attempted suicide. I hung myself by my neck with a cable TV coax strung through a metal shelf. I failed, because I was startled by an unexpected sensation of falling. I told my wife, and she called my mother, and the two of them put me on a sort of informal “suicide watch”. This is what happened after that.
On Sunday, my mother came over and spent most of the day with me. She’s a former cop and detective sergeant in the […]
Ya know, I have had many, many, many, suicides this past month or so. Three. They all never showed any signs or anything and of course with the subject coming up everywhere i look now that this has happened it has reopened my deep feelings of wanting to do it however i stuck in there because it was the holidays.
Today i found out my parents are getting divorced. out of the whole year it had to be this month with all my friends’ suicides. like seriously. this is tearing me apart but i put on a brave face and listen to both of them […]
I don’t really hear about trains much when searching for suitable methods. I have certainly come across suicides relating to an individual jumping on the subway tracks, but this is not really what I’m talking about. It seems messy and uncertain, particularly due to the fact that if your jump in front of a train pulling into the station it is comming to a stop, not to mention the fact that subway trains [in my city at least] don’t seem to go that fast to begin with [not compared to actual trains anyways].
So if one was looking to be taken out by a train what […]
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