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How does one decide on life or death?

by earwaxyness 12/4/2012

written by earwaxyness

This may be an odd question.Â Hell, even I think it’s odd.Â You’ve been forewarned.

I have been (and I can only assume others have as well) on this do-I-really-want-to-die-or-not kick recently.Â God that sounds pathetic.Â I go through periods of ready, willing, and able, just deciding on a good time and place then backÂ to I don’t want to hurt those I care about before once again planning.Â I once went to a therapist.Â She said she couldn’t help until I decided if I was willing to stay alive and actively participate.Â Yet how does one decide that?Â What thought processes does one go through in […]

12/4/2012 2 comments

by ckj44 2/27/2012

written by ckj44

I was 13 when I realized that I would inevitably die.

I saw my body changing, and unlike most young teens who would
Enter a phase in which they cannot control their raging hormones and impulses, I merely noted the changes as the first leap toward my inevitable demise.

You see,

The change itself is what inspired this cognition.

I watched myself mature and it disgusted me.

My thoughts became more intelligent and clear, but apprehension and the reluctant realization of my mortality were the first discernible responses to the Change.

Life, at that moment, lost its magic.

I began writing. I played the guitar, in my room, […]

2/27/2012 11 comments