“Take a leap of faith” you said
“and leave this foreign place instead
where demons breathe and dreamers die
and pain and hatred coincide”
“and then what happens?” I replied
I couldn’t even if I tried”
You took my hand and said to me
“trust me, let’s just run and flee”
we race through chasms deep and wide
where some have lived and others died
through broken lands of dust we pass
as we walk on roads of shattered glass
just you and me against the world
where hopes and dreams begin to blur
we run for days, for years and more
and witness all […]
Let’s talk together on Skype or Google hangouts. I need some friends to talk to. I’m 25 years old lonely…. I need some friends…. post your IDs below, I’ll add you guys, don’t forget to put your asl as well…
I only have one “friend” locally in town and she is dumber than fuck. She has an unbelievable bedbug infestation – so bad that they are living in her oven. If you know anything about bedbugs, you know that they like to live near their prey (and she doesn’t stay long by the oven) and they don’t live inside metal structures (generally) unless there are so goddamn many of them that they run out of other places to live in the house. This is my friend’s situation. I call her dumb because she refuses to admit she has them and refuses to take any steps […]
I’ve seen this same sentiment expressed using the example of crumpling a piece of paper up, then smoothing it out…..I like to think that by taking the extra step of smoothing the paper out, or gluing together the broken plate, an act of healing occurs. True, the damaged object is visually and physically changed, but the healing act of restoration keeps the object whole. And there is something precious about the act of coming together to achieve restoration….understanding from where the tools to achieve the restoration come.
In the novel The Nun’s Story, the Superior […]
Cant let it win. Get it together…come on you fuck, I can do this
oh God this is so draining
The girl that always seems to come back to me one way or another in such a way that i want to control but emotions,memories all coming running back. I cant seem to move on, Ive tried so many times to forget but its not enough time because she comes back to me. Being broken up now for over 5 months, being together for a total of 3 years its hard to just forget someone like that. Are we meant for each other? Its her family that worries me…. They hate me…I don’t want to be hated for feel uncomfortable around them. What do i […]
Hm. Maybe less than a week if things go well, and a warm bath with steel will be it. I finally see the light at the end. Hahaha. No one knows no one knows. Lock the door turn up the music and let the water and red run together. Bye bye guilt bye bye grief I’ve finally cracked but now I’m taking these demons down with me! No more jitters no more anxiety no more numbness no more pills no more fucked up brain no more pain in other’s eyes no more no more no more I finally get what I deserve
No more. It doesn’t […]
He left me because I was depressed and he couldn’t cope with it.
That fact hurts in itself, because I never asked to feel like this and I hate it too.
I asked for just one chance, that was all, to prove to him that things could be different; I’d given him many throughout our relationship.
He said no. He said he didnt even want to try.
It’s been a month or so, and he hasn’t contacted me at all.
I’ve tried so hard to make things up but every attempt I’ve made, he’s ignored.
We were best friends for seven years before we got […]
I saw something on the net recently about sleeping positions and what they supposedly mean about your personality and what not. Now, I’m not the type to buy into things like that, but I had to have a bit of a sad, grudging laugh when I thought about it. My usual sleeping position was not listed. I tend to sleep on my back, legs together and hands folded neatly on my chest, like someone laid out for burial. I never really noticed before. Hah… I wonder what that says about me.
I have difficulties expressing myself through writing. so I’m just gonna do it like this.
– I panic inside my body cause I feel claustrophobic. My body aches all the time and I have a constant headache and chest ache.
= I. just. want. out.
– I have no interest in a future what so ever. I don’t want to study, meet new people or get married and have kids. I have not had a moment in years and years that I could feel happiness and joy.
– I am not interested in anything. No hobbies that can take my away from the pain just for a […]
Long story short: So there is this girl. We had crush on each other for very long time, then I had enough courage to tell her what I feel for her and she said she felt the same but she was afraid that I might be in love with someone else. Then we started dating and it lasted 6 months, and then se left me because she had mental problems and she was very confused and hurt inside, and I try to understand that. She even asked me back but I was too hurt and had lost my selfconfidence so we didn’t get back together, […]
I just wish I could take someone’s cancer or something.
Imagine knowing when to die, having all your loved ones around you counting the last breaths together.. But more than anything, you just saved someone who wants to live, someoe who can enjoy life more then you do… Having a good purpose for death is probably the best thing I could ever hoped for right now.
I’m still in love with my ex-girlfriend. We had an incredible relationship up to the point that I lost my son and depression took hold of me, we separated for a few months and got back together just as I lost my mother to a rapid cancer death. Depression took hold of me again and we separated in November last year. I have always been in love with her, throughout our time together and our time apart. I have never entertained the thought of being with anyone else.
We separated both times because I lost the ability to communicate and I had lost myself, the man […]
My Mom’s been dead for almost 5 years this August (heart attack at 53), my Dad’s dead too (Cancer at 56). I’m 34, my birthday is 10 days after Mother’s day. I don’t have anyone from my family left that i care about, but I’m worried about leaving my partner behind, we’ve been together 11 years and i don’t know if he could care for himself. I’ve been thinking about slowly splitting up with him so i could kill myself a while after without worrying about his well being.
Just wish i could get him away, and some where he’ll be ok with out me, […]
When I look in the mirror,
I don’t see me
I see failure and no beauty,
I see ugliness and sorrow
I used to be so happy
A bubbly joyful girl
I used to be excited for school and my friends
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Now I dread seeing myself
I fear breakfast and tea
I know my friends watch me
To make sure that I eat
They scan my arms everyday
Checking for new cuts
Their faces falling at the sight of crusted blood
I know they’re disappointed
I see it in their eyes
Some seem to understand
Some over-react
Some look disgusted when I show them the scars
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Long sleeve t-shirts are the new ‘in thing’ for me
Jeans with pockets to hide my fingers
Rough […]
Baby I miss you. Why did you leave me? There is so much I want to tell you, to talk to you about.  I need you, I dont know what to do without you. My life is a dream now, constantly remembering the time we were together. And you were right, the problem is me…I’m sorry baby.
This book is one of the major reasons my life is on a positive trend in recent months. In Feb and March, as some of you know, I put all the legal pieces together and tied up my loose ends…..I was ready to drive from PHX to SF and act on the lure of the Bridge. I had severe insomnia and had not slept more than 3 or 4 hours in several days. I found this book online, ordered it for my Kindle. I read it straight through (thank you, insomnia).
I don’t have Kevin’s Bi-Polar disorder, nor do I have Schizophrenia….I am diagnosed with treatment […]
Hey i really need somebody to start travelling with full time, backbacker style. I live in montreal, so if you live in canada and are interested, really serious, hit me up and we can laugh, cry, exchange, travel and live together for a while. zamilee1@gmail.com for any info about me and talking about how we’ll organise our meeting! I don’t bite! I won’t say my life story here, so please write to me !!! I am so sick of this place and need to get away from this 🙁
But my uncle said that if I really wanted to show I love him I had to not cut tonight so tomorrow I could tell him “good news”.
I mean, I told him to not be mad if I slip, which is proving difficult….but if it will make him happy then okay, I’ll try my best not to. We’ve been through a lot together and he’s almost like my best friend….so I guess it’s the least I could do for him.
Ugh but I can hear that blade calling….”let me kiss your skin….it won’t hurt for long at all”
maybe some music and a good movie will […]
I wish all of us on here could just get together in one place and hug and cry and eat a lot of food. Especially since so many of us are so lonely and no one else understands what we’re going through.