I’m in tears tonight. Not entirely sure what triggered it right now, but I’m hurting and I just don’t want to be here at all. I’m just ready to leave this world.
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I’m going to die tonight. If I don’t, then I will die tomorrow. If I don’t succeed tomorrow, I’m going to keep trying until I succeed.
It was so nice to see you tonight. I feel alive. I love you much. I wish you could read this. I wish you could. I really love you.
I really love him. So much.
It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. I’ve been really busy with work and such.
Things are going rough and I on’y have until the 30th of this month to turn things around or I’ll lose everything.
These are my choices:
1) Default on my storage units and lose all mine and my late husbands possessions.
2) Sell my body to come up with $400 by the 30th.
3) Chain myself to a tree in the middle of nowhere tonight in soaking wet clothes and freeze to death.
Out of those options, which would you choose and why? What do you think I should do?
I’m working, but I don’t […]
All I’ve been doing, for nearly twenty years, feels like it’s amounting to nothing. I feel like If I were to die tonight, I’d have lived life to the fullest. I’ll be 34 on Yule; I’m still pretty young as considered by some, but it’s like I have nothing else to experience, other than the things I’ve been doing for the past two decades since my emancipation. Does anyone else have this feeling?
You just don’t fit? Like everything has just come together wrong and you somehow stopped being right in your own life (if you ever even were) and there’s just no place for you? Like maybe you just came off the assembly line broken? I’m feeling that way tonight (or actually this morning because I’ve spent five hours sitting here contemplating this). Wrong choices, wrong people, wrong planet maybe. I feel like I just don’t fit anywhere, like I never have been “right”, something was wrong from the get-go. It’s been a long time since I have been this low, since I have sat back and […]
Everything has become so fucked up. I use to be so good at holding my emotions in check, tucking everything away in a forbidden portion of my psyche. That all ended tonight. I cried tonight like I have never cried before. And while it was a much needed release, it was bitter sweet.
Maybe it was the alcohol that triggered all of this. Maybe it was the insurmountable guilt that has compounded over the years. I honestly don’t know.
You see, I wish I hadn’t held these feelings in for so long. I wish I could turn back the unforgiving hands of time. I wish I told her […]
Killing myself tonight. Everything is lost. I’ve been on here for a year, yet I can’t only have this.
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Should I live or die tonight? Whats the point in living? What’s the point in stayin alive when u know nothin good is going to happen. What’s the point in stayin here in this world. I’m just sick and tired of having to live like this..but I’ll believe that one day something will change my
life. I’ll wait until I can’t wait no more.
My friend was found incoherent – little response, I don’t know anything further yet. I have been having these really dark premonitions about her killing herself. I hope she doesn’t die. I can’t do anything, I am powerless. I just texted her silly pictures and thoughts of her as often as I thought she could tolerate over the past several months. I was so afraid that she was mad at me because I used to be the one so depressed and cutting and so ill. I haven’t felt so depressed and cutting for several months. I don’t know how to treat her… I want to […]
I’ve never been on this site before ever. I’m killing myself tonight but I just wanted to talk to some people before I do. Idk. I haven’t really talked to my friends lately. Just something to keep my mind off of it for a few hours I guess. Thanks homies
until yesterday. Sat down to pay some bills online and what I feared was true, was. Is. I don’t have the money. Missed my first mortgage payment tonight and with a $700 oil delivery to pay for followed by a life insurance bill, electric, car insurance, then Christmas followed by it all starting over in January… I don’t see a way out of it. Even with my second part time job.
I can’t believe how badly it’s affecting me. I’m naseaus, ears are ringing, it’s a little difficult to breathe, headache.
If I up my life insurance policy by a little bit, make sure there’s no suicide […]
I am getting closer and closer to the end now. I have already scouted the location. Its very high and easy to access. There are no fences or anything to prevent me from jumping, which is odd because i wouldn’t be the first one to commit suicide at that spot. At the bottom there is concrete. I will try to hit it head first. Should be the fastest way to go.
I have put my affairs into order as best i can. I have written a suicide note. I will probably do it this week. Maybe tonight. Maybe tomorrow night. Seems almost inevitable now.
There are a […]
This will be my third story on here. And probably my last. I’m done. I typed up my note on my computer and I have my pills with some water. I am going to do it tonight or tomorrow night. I’m sorry if you tried to help me. It’s almost funny. I walk down my hallway and see pictures of me when I was younger. You wouldn’t even imagine I would become this. This monster that cuts himself and cries everyday just because he is different. Someone who can only find closure in death. I really wish it didn’t have to be this way. I just can’t see a […]
Decided i’m going to go all out on a final attempt tonight, “double the dose and half the space”.
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on this forum, I didnt create this account until very recently but I have been reading your posts for a very long time. They have given me strength and kept me going throughout the worst moments of my life to date.
I wish all of you well in the future, I hope that the pain dissipates for anyone that is sufferring, and to all of you who provide selfless support to others, I salute you.
Thanks again.
Don’t go, I can’t do this on my own, save me from the ones that haunt me in the night I can’t live with myself, so stay with me tonight.
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. My dad threw a knife at me and my mom tried to strangle me. On top of that, my friends just abandoned me! This is the second time in less than three days I have attempted to commit suicide. And, with any luck, I will be gone after tonight.
So ok, something happened tonight.. you might think it’s funny, you may not. I’m unbiased about it for the time being. But i guess..put yourself in this position.
Was just chatting with Internet companions for a few hours and one of them started flirting with me. This all happened with in the course of like 30 minutes…anyways. i chat with these people all the time.. I thought this was a girl, I myself being a guy. I guess I just didn’t notice before but I thought for sure I remember this friend being a girl. I post pictures of myself that people like to see, […]
So right now im sitting in the living room of my home, watching my fiancée pack her things to leave. And it’s killing me. I can’t stand it. I haven’t much to say, just to say I’m sorry. I failed you, in so many ways and therefore I deserve this. Which is why I have decided to end my life tonight. You’ll leave, and be happy. And I’ll be happy too. You told me that you want me to think of my happiness first now. Well that’s what I’m going to do. Tonight after you close the door for the last time, I will wrap […]