I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. My dad threw a knife at me and my mom tried to strangle me. On top of that, my friends just abandoned me! This is the second time in less than three days I have attempted to commit suicide. And, with any luck, I will be gone after tonight.
So ok, something happened tonight.. you might think it’s funny, you may not. I’m unbiased about it for the time being. But i guess..put yourself in this position.
Was just chatting with Internet companions for a few hours and one of them started flirting with me. This all happened with in the course of like 30 minutes…anyways. i chat with these people all the time.. I thought this was a girl, I myself being a guy. I guess I just didn’t notice before but I thought for sure I remember this friend being a girl. I post pictures of myself that people like to see, […]
So right now im sitting in the living room of my home, watching my fiancée pack her things to leave. And it’s killing me. I can’t stand it. I haven’t much to say, just to say I’m sorry. I failed you, in so many ways and therefore I deserve this. Which is why I have decided to end my life tonight. You’ll leave, and be happy. And I’ll be happy too. You told me that you want me to think of my happiness first now. Well that’s what I’m going to do. Tonight after you close the door for the last time, I will wrap […]
Tonight I’ve realised how utterly alone I am, think I’ll cry myself to sleep thinking of love that’ll never be, I’m so lonely, so frightened of the future.
Have you ever had one of those nights. When you have it up to there with everything and you just wish you can just put a gun to your head and pull the trigger. Tonight is defintaly one of those nights I’m so ticked off to the point that i cant even concentrate on my work. Well guess I’ll go listen to some music on my headphones till i black out.
Hope you guys are having a better night than I am.
Peace!
…I’m giving up on you.
Tonight feels right. My heart is heavy, but this gun feels so light. Tonight is right.
Goodbye.
Hey guys,
Basically, my life has been a life of lies. I’ve lied to almost everyone i’ve met. I’ve dissapointed my parents, my school life, and myself. And im getting kicked out tonight. Any advice on how to live? I’m 16, so many opportunities are already out the window. Please help, and thank you.
BTW: I have no money, no car (am using a bike), and I have a netbook (really shitty)that I’m trying to find an online school with.
There’s nothing more to say
Here at the end, will I find
Unleash, are you my monster
Are you all mine, all mine
Thank you for being so sweet
Be my little flower, take me
I’ve gone crazy, are you
Can I see you tonight, Maurice
Let me know, let me know
You want to Samba, you want to fight
Let’s f***
Monster rally
Hi, Thought I’d post this and see what other users are up to on this chilly night.
Me I just got home from a long day of college classes from 9-9 now I’m just resting checking email and sipping on hot cider.:)
Hello SP,
Well…I thought someone should know. Maybe that way, someone could care. Perhaps.
I had planned my suicide for the end of November, but current circumstances has bumped the date up to tonight. The plan is to overdose. Now in case this doesn’t work out, I have a school paper I have to finish and email to my professor so if I do fail, I don’t screw up the rest of my life (such as school). But I can only hope that this works. I took off of work tomorrow morning so that, in case I fail, I don’t have to come in. I’ll be too […]
Playstation, deep devastation
Manifestation, a true hell
Do you know what the darkness
The book, the story, supreme chain
The age and a child, blood of binary
My deteriorating rotting flesh
Sacred asphyxiation, spiritual cruxifiction
I wear a mask and I’m a goddamned pirate
The clay in the face, need to detoxify
Back seven years and purist in the sun
Who are you, what if you were I
Me, now, my unfathomable cape of suffer
Eternal, fated, I’m here to save the world
Can I burn a fire and you be the dynamite
Can I roll out tonight, in my white robe
Down under, gate thirteen
I’m so sick of being literally ignored by the people around me of these extreme feelings. Literally ignored. I say something, and they act as if nothing was said. I attempted suicide before, and I want to do it again. I do not know why I couldnt have just died the first time. As if anybody cares. If anybody cared I wouldn’t be in this situation right now. I have sought help through counseling but I have found it to not work for me. I find myself wanting to hang myself everyday. I want to so much. I know its my only hope but I […]
I’m going to kill myself tonight.
The most painful part is;
I actually think I’m going to do it.
Yep. There was a chance for me in April where I could have died from cyanide poisoning. As painful as that would have been, I’d be dead right now. My suffering would have ended there. I hate myself for not doing it, for not taking the chance I had.
I thought I could make a life for myself, for my Grandmother’s sake at the very least, but things have gotten worse since then. I’m making excuses, whatever. I want out right now. I’m going to try again tonight. It should work if I’m serious enough.
In case it does work; I bid thee farewell.
<3
I don’t know what to do. I am stressed out and dont think i have the energy to get through yet another day. I don’t have anyone to talk me through anything since we moved. Noone cares. I am pretty sure if I died tonight, I wouldn’t be missed. I am tired of helping everyone, And putting on a happy face when nothing is okay. I want to die right now.
It’s funny how people say they want to help but they don’t. It’s funny how death is a last resort and people always think you’re crazy. It’s crazy that I just drank 6 Liters of water in two hours last night and I’m still alive. Death, find me as soon as you can. If not, I’ll come looking for you again tonight.
I’m hopefully going to end it tonight. I’ve felt unhappy and alone for many years and while I’ve coped for as long as I have its gradually gotten worse and I just can’t deal with it anymore. My only regret is the pain I’ll cause my family and the few friends I have by doing this, I don’t expect them to respect my decision some of them will even think I’m selfish and a coward but if refusing to continue to live in misery to keep them happy is selfish then so be it.
I really need to get out, tonight
God and goddess, can you be
One, two, three, never alright
Take me to Lugia, today
Let me, let me die
And you can go back
Oh, baby; oh, gorgeous
Child, sevens to Satori
Are you with me
Vagabond, you can hold the glock’
I’ll use my fist to the end, like a water
Scramble, Faye Valentine
Can I be the never, Spike Spiegel
Black Jack, take it tonight
Caesar at ours, oh
A new story of I and us, will it be forever.
Monastic
My little brother was in an accident tonight. Was thrown from the truck. Yes, there was alchol involved and he is a minor but that is not the big issue for me right now.
He wanted me to come get him and not my dad. When I told my dad where I wanted to go he told me if I went to get him I would get kicked out of our house. Im so torn and so depressed. I can’t be the big sister I need to be because fear of getting kicked out. I really just […]