right now the urge to ace myself is strong. i don’t really know why. these urges come and go. for the most part i just ride them out. not now i say. time isn’t right. like there is a “right” time to die. there are things that need to be taken care of. loose ends tied up. careful consideration is called for. i have selected a few days next month. chances are those days will mean nothing. i am stubborn till the end. MY time schedule. not depression’s. so i am supposed to try being sober for x amount of days. to try to get […]
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Vices
Depression hits us all, I think. There’s not a single person I have spoken to that hasn’t felt it’s clammy hands around their soul. It seems to be caused by many things, from big life changing events, to small things that just build up and knock a person off their feet eventually. Â I’ve had it time and and time again, but usually managing to shake it off like a wet dog. Â This time however, it’s crippled me.
I’ve seen death burn through a families hope, I’ve felt that pain. I got through it.
I’ve felt the devastation of a loved one no longer loving you. I got through […]
this ache is stealing my face
stealing my name
This break in cognitive function
is leaving me lame
broken and mangled
twisted devices
going through the motion
life can only be perpetuated through vices
because the light is too bright
and the truth is too truthful
drink me down from this ledge tonight
loneliness is a prison with no bars to hold me in
the people all around meÂ
are merely bricks to my invisible prison
and they by their existence profess
my inadequecies
I am alive
but only by technicality