I don’t know who I am anymore. It’s like my oldself escaped somehow. Is that even possible? Or am I still me but its hidden really deep inside. I don’t feel like myself when I’m alone. I don’t even know who I am. Everyone knows that happy girl because that’s the act I put up for people. Or is it..? I wonder and question about my life. A lot. I have family and friends who love me. I still don’t know why I feel so empty, this isn’t the first time. Actually I been feeling like this for a while. Putting up a past on […]
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Vocabulary
I need help. But my therapist stopped me and said if I continue to use the vocabulary I’m using to describe my feelings, she can consider it a legal “yes” to the “suicidal?” box, and I’d lose my security clearance and my career with my company goes with it. I should have known better; any suggestion of mental incapacity makes you a national security risk, so I can’t get any sort of professional or medical help. Not sure why I care so much; I feel like I’m on a freaking pirate ship here. Belligerent a-holes here don’t respect anything I tell them to do, specifically […]
Hello.
There are a few background things you might want to know. Firstly, I’m a clinical psychopath. This doesn’t make me a killer or a psycho, although it is generally a daily struggle to keep from being either. To me, the world is black and white; there exists, for me at least, no shades of gray. My parents have known about my condition and have actually by and large done an excellent job of raising me. I come from a privileged family and have had everything I have needed provided for me, within reason. I’ve worked to secure that which would not be provided, namely the […]