I don’t know who I am anymore. It’s like my oldself escaped somehow. Is that even possible? Or am I still me but its hidden really deep inside. I don’t feel like myself when I’m alone. I don’t even know who I am. Everyone knows that happy girl because that’s the act I put up for people. Or is it..? I wonder and question about my life. A lot. I have family and friends who love me. I still don’t know why I feel so empty, this isn’t the first time. Actually I been feeling like this for a while. Putting up a past on smile and acting its is all natural to me, but when I’m all alone when no one is around they wouldn’t even know that was that happy girl. I. don’t. know. Is all I can say, its in my daily vocabulary saying, because to be honest I don’t really know and if I do I would rather keep it to myself then hurting others because truly my family is the reason why i feel this way. they aren’t terrible. At all. I didn’t even know if I wanted to post this. This post doesn’t even make sense. I understand I guess. I don’t know..