I long for the touch of a woman, a woman near my own age. I don’t understand people who say that age doesn’t matter. Age does matter. If you are in it for young sex or the money perhaps that is different. I am not that kind of man. I do not want any younger women lets say under 45 because I am 57. It is not fair to the woman since I will not be alive for a long time like her. I would not want her to deal with the sadness and heartbreak that may come with a dead boyfriend/husband. She may also […]
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I miss you so much. I miss talking with you, I miss being with you, your company was my distraction from the dark void in my head.
The flashbacks I’m having are brutal. I constantly want to kill everyone around me. The anxiety and anger is just getting worse. I can’t go out in public without my eyes darting back and forth like someone is out to get me. I hate people.
Last therapy session made me rehash things that I long buried, I relived the shock and disgust. Therapist even commented on the scared look in my face. I just dont know what to do anymore.
There’s no point in living if you’re all alone with your thoughts and dreams and have no one to share in them.
There’s no point in living if you feel too much pain and suffering in a life that’s empty of anything worthwhile.
There’s no point in living if you see everyone around you are out enjoying their lives while you remain hidden.
There’s just no point in living;
I don’t want to look out of my eyes anymore and see the utter void that my life is.
The only thing left to do is for me to accept my fate
The only thing left that will continue is a purple hue
I am the Eternal Morlock, but I must continue
Please do not try to find me; I will return in seven years
But to never
Spit-dragon, I lost my power
I cannot breathe like a fire
Spawn has arrive in the water
Mask, chain, neck to the boulder
I am the God of Warlock
The thunder, the alpha
A missing key, a void
I am the one that I seek
Only I […]
We’re just one of millions of various organisms, albeit at the more intelligent end of the scale. We’re here for the briefest time in the overall scheme of things. Are we just here to reproduce and leave more humans behind, so they can then go on and reproduce, and so it repeats itself for eternity? For what purpose? We live with violence, wars, murders, and natural disasters, floods, earthquakes, etc that wipe of thousands of our species and other species. I’ve analysed and wondered about these things all my life. I don’t remember anything before I was born – just a total void – and […]
Well, people have to start somewhere i guess. Some way to speak, say something in this place. For a long time now (not sure how much anymore, months for sure, years probably) i have only one clear thought in my mind – dying. Any way, any how. I came to the point in life when i realized i’m broken without any way to repair my remaining time. Will state right away that it has been more then strange journey for me, full of sickness, suffering and violence, both in mental and physical way.
I’m 30 in couple months, but feel like i’m ancient. I live in […]
It’s like I’m destined to feel this desperate and guilty my whole life. Jesus please save me, help me, show me, do something to let me know you’re there and not just a story for us to feel good about. I want to meet you when I die, not a black void.
I’ve been so lonely lately and I feel like my music is the only thing I have to hold on to. Nobody will listen to me when I speak, when I cry, when I scream, I feel like I’m falling into a deep dark hole. Never to return again.
I’ve had so many thoughts about running away or killing myself… I’m starting to scare even myself.
I’ve always hated myself. I’ve never actually felt love except for when I was a kid. I’m still falling into the endless void.
Always was. Always will be…
Just how many times have I wanted to cry.
But somehow “it’s not manly to cry”.
And I’ve never really cared about this weird social norm, but now the tears just won’t come.
I am reaching but I fall
And the stars are black and cold
As I stare into the void
Of a world that cannot hold
I’ll escape now from this world
From the world of my beloved
There is nowhere I can turn
There is no way to go on
My soul cries out in anguish every time I get backstabbed by the one I love most.
have you ever had that one fear that you couldn’t get rid of and it keeps eating away at u until finally there is nothing left of u, nothing but an empty shell? it sucks. it really does. or when u say ur fine but deep down inside u know ur not. and that soon something is going to put u over the edge. and ur gone. u enter the void.
“Scythe”
Arise affinity.
Chosen Lords, where art thou, [in space and time].
Navigate through this hell.
The torch that beholds, humanity’s alpha line.
The seal. Black.
Death Valley squadron, the wild card. Save me.
Void of me like void of life.
Monstrous atrocity. All I’ve ever known is global cold existence.
Scythed. And poison.
Rising cold Aquarius. From death, unto life.
Our fate.
My fate, in black infinity.
Intolerable iron satan of hell, in second master molding.
The second final, in counting.
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Master of light. Monster of hell.
Duality of the scale, in my blood.
Forever etch, in pilgrimage.
Lucifer. Bringer of light. Satan’s salvation.
Duality, the […]
(Back from the trash) [For entertainment] …
Pokémon incarnation.
Forsaken one.
Reach into hell, a trusting hand.
Let us travel slow, into the deep of void.
Oh, how fun; perhaps can it be.
A Muk, trying to become a champion.
Funk it. Bust the mission. It’s the righteous way.
Muk has freaking arms and hands, he can breakdance, all day.
At night sitting by the fire, what can we solemnly do.
Muk- I don’t mind. As long as I can breathe, be warm, and heal.
Solemnly like a granite pillar. Back through the void, of saint-hell goodness.
(Caterpie>Venemoth. Venonat>Butterfree…..)
Purple Venemoth, the token one.
I wish I […]
How could I be lost, if I’ve got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold, how come its got so cold?
How could I be lost, in remembrance I relive?
And how can I blame you if its me I can’t forgive?
Is there any light? Where is the light?? I keep searching, my eyes might be open, but the light, it seems like its running away, always 1 step ahead of me.
Its within reach, but when I try, it just barely eludes my fingertips.
My soul crys out in anguish and despair.
Like a newborn left in a dumpter yearning for the return of his mother.
The […]
I feel trapped here by the people who care about me. I dislike causing pain to others, even if they will die and forget all about it. Perhaps that is irrational?
So I go through the motions of life. I can’t see how this is preferable to me being dead, except for that everyone isn’t crying about it, and my household has an income. (Though were I dead, I wouldn’t have the capacity to give a crap anymore)
I see my future as hopeless. I have a son in kindergarten and another on the way in the spring. What am I to tell them? “Sons, life doesn’t […]
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