have you ever had that one fear that you couldn’t get rid of and it keeps eating away at u until finally there is nothing left of u, nothing but an empty shell? it sucks. it really does. or when u say ur fine but deep down inside u know ur not. and that soon something is going to put u over the edge. and ur gone. u enter the void.
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Mine isn’t fear, it’s a lack of belief in myself. I don’t believe the words coming out of my mouth are good. I don’t believe typing this note is the right thing or the right words or the right thought.
i don’t believe Im good enough for anything or anyone
Yep. I know exactly what you feel. I fear I will let my few close friends down, or I’ll disappear before fulfilling my promise. I say I’m fine, but I can see the loneliness etched in the silvery stripes on my arms.
“have you ever had that one fear”
The question should be: When did you ever not have that fear?
@shadow
when it comes to letting friends down u need to make sure they r actual friends and not like mine who are “friends”. i told all my friends that the friendship were over. i didn’t care about having friends. ill talk to them but i never want to be around anyone. always alone. so i just said i was done. they were hurt and mad at me but what do u expect when i stop caring about everything. the only reason my grades r good is because if they’re not, my father will make me break up with my bf. so far hes helped through things but i always have that feeling of indifference. im trying to get rid of it. but i see no reason to. im starting to scare people too. but its not like i care if they’re scared or not.