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Should I?

by wethebroken 2/14/2014

written by wethebroken

I have only four true friends at the moment. Trying to make new friends for me use to be so easy… now not so much.

Anyways, I made a Facebook status, just thanking my four true friends for staying by my side no matter what.

My old ‘best friend’ saw it, seeing I didn’t include her. Note that I didn’t include her because Â she never speaks to me, she makes promises she NEVER keeps, and she tries to invite me and our other best friend to her house, only to ditch us last minute.

I got tired of how she treated me, so I just kind of stopped […]

2/14/2014 4 comments

The up and down continues.

by Palmer123 2/14/2014

written by Palmer123

I’ve tried not to be depressed, and I’ve tried not to let suicidal thoughts creep back into my mind. Â One tenet of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is that if someone can change the way he or she thinks that will affect their behavior–sort of the scientific version of the power of positive thinking.

When I was released from the hospital and my residential treatment program I could relate to CBT. Â It was last July that I transitioned to out-patient treatment. Â For so long I haven’t had suicidal thoughts. Â But that’s changing, and I’m thinking more and more of killing myself. Â (There I said it.) Â Being hospitalized and […]

2/14/2014 2 comments

very lonely San Francisco man

by ersc6541 2/14/2014

written by ersc6541

Any depressed girls here in the city who want to just talk? Â Im not trying to hook up but I have unsuccessfully on dating sites. Â Just being honest. Â Ive attempted suicide several times. Â I even shot up motor oil once. Â My latest plan is to…. Â well I dont want to give it away. Â Everything thinG I do turns to shit. Â Btw …. guys… Â quit hitting on me. Â (Males) Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â […]

2/14/2014 6 comments

by Invisible2theWorld 2/14/2014

written by Invisible2theWorld

2/14/2014 3 comments

Ideas…

by FacelessWords 2/14/2014

written by FacelessWords

I’ve thought about this off and on for several years… I think about it and plan I now more than ever. In the past, I attempted constantly, and of course failed just as constantly. (I apologize for any mistakes that may occur as I’m stubbornly using a mobile phone in bed). The one method I keep coming back to is overdosing on alcohol rectally (because my body clearly has a tendency to puke up harmful things. Stupid body). I am a tiny individual. 5″3′ and 98 pounds. I do not drink alcohol on a regular basis (or at all really) and therefore don’t have a […]

2/14/2014 0 comment

This Life I Hate

by Jovahala 2/14/2014

written by Jovahala

Do you remember those summer childhood moments spent carefree and happy, when you were filled with hope for your bright future? Â I do. Â I look back, and think, where did I go wrong? What did I do wrong to make it getÂ this bad? I also remember a childhood gone wrong – a childhood of sadness wishing it would all just go away. Â I remember a young me, not too long ago, wanting it all to end. Â And that’s still the me today. Â I’ve always felt like I were on the outside looking in. Â I’ve always felt somehow different – as if there were something setting […]

2/14/2014 9 comments

valentines day and druggggs â™¥

by interstella_ 2/13/2014

written by interstella_

So tomorrow I’m going to a friend of mine’s house to have a sort of anti-valentine’s day party. Not really a party, just some mutual friends, some food, and some weed. The thing is, my mother decided to tell me she’s going to drug test me the day after. I’m at the point where I don’t really care if she catches me. I’m at a really low point, even though I’m young. I want to smoke and forget about all of my stresses. I’m not the type of person to do crazy drugs like acid or cocaine. I don’t like any of that stuff. I […]

2/13/2014 5 comments

Prince Charming

by LetItGo 2/13/2014

written by LetItGo

I just want a Prince charming
or even someone that isn’t harming.
Just someone to ten my heart
and someone to stop me from tearing apart.
I don’t want a tiara or a crown.
Just some happiness when I’m down
or just a smile on their face
But I know that’s not the case
Someone that will trust me
And someone who will believe me
Someone to share a genuine a smile
To comfort me all the while
A person who doesn’t care about my past.
A relationship that I know will last
A person that understands me
And expects me to just be me.

2/13/2014 5 comments

Living, Dying, Life, Death

by LetItGo 2/13/2014

written by LetItGo

The only reason I haven’t killed myself yet is because I don’t want to hurt anyone but the reason I want to kill myself is because everyone is hurting me.

2/13/2014 4 comments

I made a decision weeks ago that I have to live for my family, but…

by cagedtiger 2/13/2014

written by cagedtiger

All I can think about every minute is dying. I want to fucking die today, right now, so badly. Â :'(

2/13/2014 4 comments

For Andrea

by Soldier1861 2/13/2014

written by Soldier1861

I started writing letters to the only people who talk to me. This is what I have for Andrea, a friend who has suffered a lot, and I tried to help, but she was never in CAP with me and disagreed on me joining.

Andrea:

If youâ€™re reading this, then you know. Sorry. Wanted to tell you.

The money I left wonâ€™t be much but it should help you get by. Want you to be happy when you meet the right person. Donâ€™t want you to have to be on your own.

Not sure the right way to say how I feel about you. Think you know already, though. […]

2/13/2014 0 comment

No friends :c

by wethebroken 2/13/2014

written by wethebroken

My friends.. Before.. They were all I had and what made me stay.

But they saw how people began to hate me.. And decided they didn’t want to be seen with me.. So they all left.

Now I’m here, still depressed.

All alone.

Friendless.

Feeling so useless to the world.

I mean, why live anymore??

No reason anymore.

2/13/2014 4 comments

Stuck between a rock and a hard place.

by half_asleep_half_awake 2/13/2014

written by half_asleep_half_awake

I don’t want to live, but I don’t want to die either.

I’m sick of the pain and frustration that life forces on you… there is no escaping it. But I’m afraid that my attempt at ending it will fail, and that I’d continue to live as a vegetable or in a form of agonizing physical pain.

I also do not wish to cause my mother grief, nor anyone else for that matter. Pain is the exact thing I’m trying to avoid in life, so I’ve never gone out of my way to hurt others. She did not wish for a daughter that would have rather not […]

2/13/2014 1 comment

mornings

by interstella_ 2/13/2014

written by interstella_

I used to like waking up in the morning. But now I can’t stand it. I stay up late unable to sleep. I don’t want to wake up every morning. I want to sleep forever.

2/13/2014 1 comment

Another Untitled

by endingtheagony 2/13/2014

written by endingtheagony

I couldn’t say that things are alright.

Because I can’t remember the last time they were.

And the truth is that I have been battling each day,

just trying to hold my head above water.

I don’t want to live like that anymore.

I don’t want to live in state of constant battle with myself.

While I will never expect to see myself happy;

I refuse to continue to be my own worst enemy.

When everyone wants to see me fail,

I have to be the one who is rooting for me.

I have to be the one who proves everyone wrong.

2/13/2014 2 comments

Debard from exams

by akhil 2/12/2014

written by akhil

I am a b.tech student in united. I just don’t want to disrespect my father by all this my life. My family is expecting much from me. So, I want to die .

2/12/2014 2 comments

Confused

by wethebroken 2/12/2014

written by wethebroken

I’m confused on whether I want to commit or live.
If I live, there is that possibility that life will be how I want it to be in the future, but it could tyrn out shitty like it is now.
If I just commit, it’ll be over.
I won’t have to suffer and struggle anymore.
I just, there are SO MANY positives and negatives with both.
I can never really see my future, when I try to it’s like “Yeah, I’m already gone so..”
BUT when I plan on attempting, I realize I’ll miss the videos my favourite youtubers make
I’ll miss listening to new […]

2/12/2014 3 comments

want to die

by hopetodie 2/12/2014

written by hopetodie

im 51 years old and sick of my life and want to end it

2/12/2014 7 comments

Nothing is right

by b5544 2/12/2014

written by b5544

A little over a year ago I met the love of my life. We had everything in common, he made me laugh, and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. For a few months, he seemed to be in love with me, too. But after a few months, he just lost interest in me. He stopped wanting to have sex and acted like he was annoyed of me and that I was a chore. We broke up and 2 months later he was dating someone else. The girl he started dating is beautiful, smart, and has lots of friends. They are […]

2/12/2014 5 comments

I need you.

by katerbugg 2/11/2014

written by katerbugg

I wish you cared like you told me you did.
I so desperately want to tell you what’s in my head, how I want to end my life, how all I really want is your help.
I need you, right now. But I’m too scared to let you know.

2/11/2014 3 comments

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