Im feeling very sad! Extremely lonely, hopelessness is like a black hole Ive fallen into. Some days are ok, some days I just want to sleep all day! Weekends seem to be the hardest to bare because I live alone and have no one to hangout with! My boyfriend has been pulling away from me for the past month, we haven’t spoken in days! He’s angry with me because I didn’t answer my phone for a whole entire day! Really, I called him 15 times in 3 days with no answer and he is furious with me for ignoring him for a day! I had […]
Tag:
Weekends
I hate the weekends. I have no where to be and the anxiety consumes me. At least during the week I have some responsibility that forces me to function and get distracted from what triggers me. Weekends remind me of my lack of meaningful connections and that my participation is not required or sought after. I often end up self medicating so I can relax enough to sleep or settle down enough to read or watch movies. When that doesn’t work I reach out to people who don’t truly respect me simply for some companionship and pseudo moments of feeling like I am part of […]