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the Plan

by the Guardian 4/30/2012

written by the Guardian

Middle of the night you wake up, sweaty, confused, afraid. That same old feeling of dread hits you. Why can’t you sleep? Every night it’s the same fuckin thing.
You wake up hating yourself and wishing you were dead, you start to think of Cutting, that always works.
But tonight Cutting doesn’t help, you are overwhelmed by a strong hatred for your life and a desperate need to kill yourself.

You remember the Plan

You dig around, it’s here somewhere, you wrote it yourself, you knew it would come in handy one of these days.

As you read your own hand writing you are drawn to a happier […]

4/30/2012 5 comments

the Mentor

by the Guardian 4/22/2012

written by the Guardian

She ran from the school, crying, but racing so that know one could see her tears.
She felt alone, suffered alone, in a roaring silence.
what had M called it?
the Black Velvet Curtain
The place deep inside where she hid, somehow knowing no one would even be looking for her.

It all started when HE asked her best friend out instead. “He only used me to get to my friend”
And when she heard the hateful things he called her behind her back it got worse.
Fatty, *****, ho.
She knew what she needed to do, she had a shrt piece of razor hidin in […]

4/22/2012 7 comments

An observation

by cser17 2/9/2012

written by cser17

Let’s say you’re feeling like life is completely hopeless, and you just want to end it all. Some well-meaning person drops you off at the psych ward where you’re greeted with more pills, more doctors, and depressingly weak coffee (I’ve been there). There’s nothing terribly interesting to do, so you get bored. Maybe your new medications have terrible side effects. Maybe you get frustrated about being treated like a crazy person and you tell yourself, ‘I have sunk to a new low; I’m screwed’. You notice how odd it is that a facility designed to treat severely depressed people is so depressing.

Occasionally the doctors ask […]

2/9/2012 3 comments

So Tired…

by sneezy66 12/31/2011

written by sneezy66

I can’t begin to explain how tired I am of everything. Â Tired of being a failure, tired of the loneliness, tired of feeling like an alien that doesn’t belong anywhere, tired of not having any money, tired of putting on a brave face, tired of my shitty family, tired of having “trusted” friends stabbing me in the back, tired of hurting, tired of being hurt, tired of the sadness, tired of missing the only man I ever loved, tired of having everything go wrong, tired of the holidays … most of all, I’m tired of living.

I know people keep saying that tomorrow is the start […]

12/31/2011 51 comments