do you know that feeling of pure happiness, when you think everything is going to be ok…. i do…. it happens every morning when i wake up, but night i have fallen back, back into to this never ending loop of hate, i hate myself… people hate me… and well you get the point. I have been called day and night, werewolf, and other things of that nature by the few i can actually trust.  i am so sick of that, being happy just to know you will fall again.
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I have become hazy and numb…. i just don’t know what to do anymore….