i have very low self esteem. i spend all day online looking at ways to make myself prettier- makeup tricks, hair tricks, fashion tips. i shop a lot and keep up with latest trends and i always try to look good. i want to please those around me- my husband my family. everyone is always looking their best, they criticize me when i do not wear makeup or have my hair done. they look down on me. this morning i was feeling down and ugly like i always do while watching some beauty videos on youtube. i was listening to the TV about how to […]
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me curious .. has any of you ever tried this ?
(I’m not depressed atm, it would be pointless to try it now)
another SP member posted this video a while ago and judging from the comments on youtube, there’s a lot of positive feedback
This site should not be full of ideas and suggestions of how someone should kill themselves. It should be about sharing stories.
Because no matter what you think. And no matter how lost you feel. There is someone, whether you know them or not, who will miss you if you ever leave.
You might think it’s never going to get better, and sometimes it doesn’t. Sometimes you will need to stop hurting as much as you do everyday, or some days or all the time. But when your sitting down and you can’t take it at night. Share your story. This site, Tumblr, Facebook, Youtube, Twitter, call someone. […]
If you saw the video on youtube, that’s what inspired me. Look it up. Maybe it will inspire you too.
Stay that way
Today, I woke up
feeling an utter change
I wanted to live yesterday
I want to die today
Who can I tell
no one is here
I’m close to the end
yet, I still have no fear
I don’t want to live
I don’t want to stay
I wish i was dead
and far far away
There are others like me
I’m not alone
to bury their names
engrave them in stone
But the ones that are not
just don’t understand
I try to get help
but nobody […]
PLEASE WATCH. i think it’ll help.. it would mean a lot to me if you did.<3
by lifegetshard
written by lifegetshard
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To begin, I am fairly misanthropic and disenfranchised due to humanity’s impact on nature and the wildlife that inhabit (or did inhabit in many cases) this once beautiful planet, Â how society is in general, whether it be the intolerance and hate that monotheistic religions have spread for generations (as well as how religious teachings dominate our political and legal systems despite all of the blatant problems that arise from it), the general lack of concern for our irreversible impacts, our horrible justice systems, our spiraling out of control dependency on technology, etc, etc…. but I also share the German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer’s views on misanthropy […]
I’ve been listening to birdy a lot lately! i really love her voice and music.. it really speaks to me. if you haven’t heard of her you have to look her up on youtube.!
well this weeks been hard for me.. and I’m not even sure why.. it just seems like everyone leaving me… tho I’ve made a new friend which I’m so thankful for and i absolutely love her for heaping me. tho she may not know it. she is helping me..I’ve been thinking about suicide more an more….. i started puking again…. ugh why am i so messed up??? i badly want to cut… […]
when i said more to come, i meant it!
apples, of course 😉
playing in the rain
splashing around in puddles
crazily dancing where no one can see me in my room
singing in the shower
camping
being the hero in younger girls’ eyes
barelypolitical’s youtube channel
and mattmitch1, too
all the love from y’all
music (is in my soul)
chinese food
knowing i made a difference, no matter how small
being a techie
taking beautiful photos
books, books, and more books
movies. especially in theatre.
our crazy lunches at school
taking fashion risks
getting compliments
giving compliments
ice cream
ghirardelli sublime white vanilla dream white chocolate squares (hint hint)
seeing all the comments posted on my posts when i check in
stargazing
sleeping under the stars
swimming in a lake
sloths
baby pandas, […]
My background:
I had started wondering about death and would habitually wish for death and say ‘never mind’ 3 times afterward. This started when I was around 10, until one day I stopped saying ‘never mind’ and decided to see what would happen.
My life has been met with intense anger, anger that caused me to once whip my mother with a PC controller wire after I smashed it off the banister when I was around 16.
I started cutting myself on Valentine’s Day 2007, senior year. I started under the notion that everyone would leave me once we graduated. They all did except one. My last friend […]
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