why?

This is upsetting.

I’m not sure what’s worse: feeling so abandoned in your time of need… or realizing that your “friends” were never really friends at all. Of course, neither of those things are quite as bad as leukemia.

People tend to run from the fear of loss. They don’t want to feel the sadness they will feel, from losing someone close… so they will often distance themselves from anyone they think might not be around much longer. Not everyone is that way… but many are.

I don’t know the particulars of your situation, but medicine has come a long way in recent times. Maybe you will beat it, and go on to make better friends. And even if you don’t, maybe you will find some better friends who are sick themselves, who understand how it feels to be in your situation, and won’t judge you for it or run away just because it’s scary.