I couldn’t even read the comments to try and get some hope you know to try and keep hanging on at least for the couple of people and dog that depend on me sometimes. But idk anymore I’m starting to feel like a bother and in the way no matter how hard I try to help and please them. I’m running out of reasons to stay alive. I have to carry this blade with me every were I go just in case I get assaulted again, not to hurt the attackers but to kill myself with it before they hurt, humiliate and try to torture me again. Gosh this is worse than jail and prison put together
I doubt it, but I don’t know. I’ve only ever used the same browser and I’ve never had a problem like this.
Thanks. I don’t know why tonight is so bad. I feel like crying and screaming and running away and jumping off a cliff. My heart is racing, my blood is boiling, my mind is like a torrent of thoughts and feelings. I can;t do this without him. He was the only one who could center me and make me feel peaceful. Being in his arms was like being in heaven on earth. Knowing that I’ll never have his arms around me again is breaking me. I feel like I’m going crazy. I just don’t understand why this had to happen. Why did god do this to me. I thought I had suffered enough in my short life. There’s no recovering from this. Not for me. I know that. If this is a test to see how much I can take, God pushed me beyond my limits. And what he did can’t be fixed. Only Jesus gets resurrected.
Tomorrow is my first day off in a week. That’s probably why. Even though I have lots of appointments tomorrow and I have to get up just as early as if I were going to work, it’s probably messing with me that I don’t have to work.
How is someone supposed to live when God cuts out half their heart? I just don’t understand.
Anyhow, I’m exhausted, so bedtime for me. Don’t worry. I’m not going anywhere just yet. Peace to you all. We all deserve to be happy, I hope some of us can get it someday soon.
Also, definitely try things with a different web browser and clearing your web browser’s cache if you have problems like this in the future…
Also, try using the TEXT editor tab instead of the Visual editor if it still doesn’t work.
If you see other people posting, that means it’s usually a problem on your end, not ours. In this case, a few people were having the same problem, so we took a few steps to ensure everything was up to date on our end…
I hope you have a better day today than you thought you were going to have last night, hope soon to see your post proper if SP is now working for you, take care EvilKitten.
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I couldn’t even read the comments to try and get some hope you know to try and keep hanging on at least for the couple of people and dog that depend on me sometimes. But idk anymore I’m starting to feel like a bother and in the way no matter how hard I try to help and please them. I’m running out of reasons to stay alive. I have to carry this blade with me every were I go just in case I get assaulted again, not to hurt the attackers but to kill myself with it before they hurt, humiliate and try to torture me again. Gosh this is worse than jail and prison put together
Seriously. I hear you. This site going down or malfunctioning would be disastrous.
I’m sorry for what you’ve been through. Sometimes I hate this world.
Thanks. I’m sorry for the things you’ve been through as well hope I can get the courage to end it soon enough
I’m having the same problem. What am I doing wrong?
Don’t think it’s us. I think it’s the site.. I even tried closing and restarting my browser, but no luck.
I tried the same thing, but it didn’t work for me either. Could it be the browser that I’m using?
By the way, I’m sorry to know that you’re having such a hard time. I wish you the best.
Dumping cookies didn’t help either. At least it doesn’t seem like it usually does…
I doubt it, but I don’t know. I’ve only ever used the same browser and I’ve never had a problem like this.
Thanks. I don’t know why tonight is so bad. I feel like crying and screaming and running away and jumping off a cliff. My heart is racing, my blood is boiling, my mind is like a torrent of thoughts and feelings. I can;t do this without him. He was the only one who could center me and make me feel peaceful. Being in his arms was like being in heaven on earth. Knowing that I’ll never have his arms around me again is breaking me. I feel like I’m going crazy. I just don’t understand why this had to happen. Why did god do this to me. I thought I had suffered enough in my short life. There’s no recovering from this. Not for me. I know that. If this is a test to see how much I can take, God pushed me beyond my limits. And what he did can’t be fixed. Only Jesus gets resurrected.
Tomorrow is my first day off in a week. That’s probably why. Even though I have lots of appointments tomorrow and I have to get up just as early as if I were going to work, it’s probably messing with me that I don’t have to work.
How is someone supposed to live when God cuts out half their heart? I just don’t understand.
Anyhow, I’m exhausted, so bedtime for me. Don’t worry. I’m not going anywhere just yet. Peace to you all. We all deserve to be happy, I hope some of us can get it someday soon.
EvilKitten,
I am so sorry. I wish I could say that I know how you feel, but I can’t… All I can say is that I sincerely hope that you will be feeling better soon.
Good night, and sleep well. I wish you the best of luck with your day tomorrow and with the days ahead. Please stay safe.
Sorry for the troubles… Try it now.
Also, definitely try things with a different web browser and clearing your web browser’s cache if you have problems like this in the future…
Also, try using the TEXT editor tab instead of the Visual editor if it still doesn’t work.
If you see other people posting, that means it’s usually a problem on your end, not ours. In this case, a few people were having the same problem, so we took a few steps to ensure everything was up to date on our end…
Thanks guys. You rock.
I hope you have a better day today than you thought you were going to have last night, hope soon to see your post proper if SP is now working for you, take care EvilKitten.