Today was rape day.
This time, however, my mother was gentler. She didn’t leave me any big bruises. She even gave me some tea and covered with a warm blanket.
I’ll stop eating. I need to save money. I need to try to escape once more. Last time didn’t go well, but I need to try.
Edit: My back hurts and there was a dead spider in the tea. She’s mad, I know.
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Hi. Is everything okay?
Starving isn’t the answer.
Getting some help with this is quite important.
You should definetely try to find a safe place to go for the long term and seek the auhorities. I mean that’s kind of an easy thing to say and I’ve no idea of what you’re going through. But I was raped aged of six, by one of my mom’s ex and I feel like my life doesn’t really belong to me and from the confused memories I had it had only got worse. He promised he will never hurt me again but then everythings turned out like a creepy nightmare where he played the husband and I played his wife. Until he left, a few months later and I never saw him again. And it is your mother and I mean, we always wish they could change and whatever they do to us there is only a part of us that will love them.If your mother is capable of doing such horrible things to you I doubt she’d care about you starving or escaping. She hurted you so much that she doesn’t deserve you to make yourself suffer even more by starving yourself.