I’m Missing My Heart.

So am I. I feel emptiness, hollowness and a severe detachment from the world. It’ starting to affect my feelings with my family and pets.
Who would have thought after 10 years of various medications, controversial treatments (Ketamine) counselling with doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists. counsellors, prayer, going to church – that things would ease up. But no, they don’t the suicidal thoughts just keep sitting in my brain waiting for the moment i lose control and depression, anxiety, panic, personality disorder convince to just give it all up and die peacefully. I need ******** to fall asleep forever. I can’t take this anymore. I’ve tried to social in groups, been holding down a job for over 25 years, and hear I am, miserable, lonely, never had a partner or been in a romantic relationship. Yes I could go on writing about the good things going for me, but the bad things outweigh the good and simply there is just no point going on. I’ve purchased the peaceful book and have 3 email addresses to order ******** – i just hope they are not scammers and that customs don’t confiscate the item..I’m from Sydney Australia, so please contact me if you are in Sydney