My Letter of Resignation….

My Letter of Resignation….

To Whom It May Concern, (aka Life, the Universe, M.H., etc)

It may have come to your attention some time ago, that I am no longer happy.  It may have come to your attention that I have no intention of staying around and being a puppet anymore.  

As I type this, I realize, it has come to your attention, for you are the cosmic force that drives me further and further into my abyss of madness.  You have pushed me into a Wonderland where the Mad Hatter not only makes more sense but is my counterpart in the void between.  The Queen of Hearts as it was, is the beauty I seek, for within the realm of ME, I am nothing more than an island for all to see.  Me and Chessy (Cheshire Cat to you) are thick as thieves as we steal back what was once taken from us; our hearts on a string.

TIme, is a game many people don’t like to play but if you give in, within the moment it can take you either way.  You have pushed me as far as I can go; and this time I choose to let go.  For the shadows that once plagued me will disappear as I set myself on fire and ignite from within.  You see, I am not the puppy you once believed; nor am I that puppet on a string.  I have bid my time and I have done so well, in lieu of a pain so unfathomable that even Heaven cannot see.  For the void in which you gave to me, for your sins you bestowed…to you, I was nothing more than an entity to be used and moved around, like a token on a board.  This time, I roll the dice as I snap myself from your supposed long worn out strings and let go of the reality that is me.

You fed me lies, in the pretense of dreams.  You drop bread crumbs in the form of hopes; you made me believe in something more and as everything seem to fall into place, you took your supernova and slammed it right in my face.  For you, I exploded, pieces of me, shattered like stardust.  

Fractured particles all around; nothing of me left to be found.  You gathered up that dust that was once I, and aimed it straight for the sun.  You disintegrated all that I was.  And for what?  Please tell me what was your end goal?  To what end?  What purpose have I served, if nothing more than a lesson now forgotten in time.

I understand now, all too well, that I was nothing more than that…NOTHING.  I was the forgotten child of yesterday.  I stood on my battlefield all alone.  You isolated me with your fear.  You took from me all that was precious; and left me to bleed.  

Restless tears have come to command my fears.  As the day turns to night and the moon sails away; onto the star’s I shall climb, black glassy seas, far below.  Adrift on my memory; deeper into this night, I go.  Man, is the vessel that brought me here.  Tonight, is when I let go and fly; you have taken me deeper…deeper into your darken dreams. As, I open the door to your twisted reality and crawl through the scars you have reaped upon your soul.  As, I watch you try to hang on; as I force you to let go.  

Further into my heart, I retreat, as I watch you turn you back on me.  Running through a river of thorns, I am almost free.  Do you finally hear me?  I’ve been fighting endless seas, the wake of a lie that was once a dream.  I dance through the rain as stars shoot from afar, as I fly past Jupiter’s moon and our satellites.  Interstellar light, I want to become…glowing with all that I once was.  The woman, I locked down below…the little girl, I now refuse to know.

Play the tune, that now shatters my soul from yours.  The frequency, of what was once my random blinking light.  It’s faded.  It’s died.  No longer the pulsar that traveled through, this empty space; lost, forever in time.  Watch as I take flight, as I stand my ground.  You took me onto shattered ground, I will scream and finally, I will make a sound as the wind grows colder; in your heart shall it rain…for it’s just another hurricane.  

Time is just a place, a marker within the realm of man, it means nothing, more than words.  I have called out to you as we fall to the ground.  Onto the chessboard you have created out of your iron throne.

Stand on the battlefield, stand all alone, stand on the battlefield, stand in the cold.  Sacrifice the knight for the Queen, to square H4, I slide.  As you try to drown out the look in my eyes.  A looking glass into your mind, I am your frailty and your lie.

You snuffed out the fire, from within.  Darkness is the gift in which you live.  And now the sun ascends to the heaven’s above, a crown of thorns does this river run.  And all the truth’s that I once knew shall fall; lies rise up and settle the siren’s call.

I tried to fight your demons within, as the monsters come and tear me down; fallen angels are everywhere to be found.  Silent dreams shatter like a supernova colliding; a black hole,a  dream, I don’t want to know.

Bishop to A6, as I stand to face all that I risk.  I stand on the battlefield, I stand all alone, look at me, as I stand out in the cold.  

Time is winding down, your heart was never anywhere to be found; fear creeps in, enemies all around.  And here, I stand my ground…

Torn wings, the emerald from above, the diamond in the rough, the one forgotten by love.  Stand and face me; look at me, as tears flow freely, like that of this raging stream.  I slip my hand from yours as I run right back into the sun.  I take my sword and let myself bleed for once.  No, longer shall I run.  Stand, you are now alone, stand without me, stand on your battlefield, stand in the cold.

Savage horses rain down as my light flickers in and out.  Knight takes the King and you have now officially killed the Queen…and in doing so, I shall be set free.

Sincerely,

KR