Angel of death

I wish the angel of death like the one off the American Horror Story tv series existed, just one kiss and your free.

I am so desperate to go now, I can’t fight myself anymore, I can feel the desperation constantly rising in me with the more and more I think about being free. Free from the pain and suffering of my health problems and the feelings of guilt and burden that I am becoming to my family.

I did have a plan in place on how to free myself but money has now become an issue and I’m going to have to make a new one.
I was hoping to go to Switzerland (dignitas) I begged my family to take me so I wouldn’t be alone and could die with them surrounding me but instead they just called the mental health team in as they can’t bear to lose me even though everday they see me suffer?

Just so fed up now!