Is there another side? After adolescence will my hormones just fade off… leaving me with a generally positive view of life? Is there another side to death? I hope not. I get peace from thinking of the eternal darkness, the nothingness. Though I feel like damnation and it’s promise of constant pain may just be better. Either way, I don’t live for myself. Although… I seem to keep hurting my loved ones. I can’t help it. It’s selfish accidents, I guess. I got drunk for the first time the other night. What a relief. I could wash away the heaviness for a while. God did […]
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EtherealDemons
So this site is for talking stuff out? That’s real cool. I got on here because I feel like I’ve fallen and I can’t get up. See what I did there? Life alert. Haha. I’m so alone. I feel like a repellant. The few that can manage to love me I push away. Mostly because I’m paranoid, and I’m really good at blaming other people and then realizing later it was me all along. I haven’t actually tried to commit suicide yet. Dunno if that’s some sort of credential I’ve got to have to write here. I mean I’ve cut myself, if that helps, just […]