i know i wouldn’t kill myself. but i feel like disappearing. just for an hour, maybe for a month, maybe forever. so many things are piling up on me. i don’t know how i feel anymore. the only girl i ever truly loved just hurt me ever so deeply. my parents aren’t bad parents, but it seems that everything that they try to do to promote a good relationship isn’t helping. my friends don’t really respect me anymore, and I hardly get any sleep from the amount of work I have to do.
I just want to sit down, take a deep breath and just vanish. I wish I could see things the way I see them now, but without having to actually interact with this world.