well, i really dont know why im still living, ive had enough of this fucking world, i figured that out when i was 7.
saw my friend hanging from a rope and dangling from the ceiling, worst thing ive ever seen in my life, and every single day from that point on, ive always wondered why did he do it? it seemed like a good idea to me, it really does, ive even tried it before. well i did once, but the thing i was hanging off of just broke and i fell ot the ground, and i layed there for about an hour just crying and shit, but im finished with the crying now. i think ive ran out, now that my fuckin dad took up this habbit of beating me, for shit that wasnt even my fault. my parents always expect the worst of me, and it fuckin angers me. but i do have one good thing in my life, my girlfriend danielle. she is my only true love and yet, i still want to just kill myself, i tried some websites, and some phone opperators, but the people who i got were of another ethnicity and tried to offer me an advertaisment, so that REALLY made me want to just fuckin slit my wrists right there, it hurts but w/e, id rather feel pain than nothing at all.
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okay hun. I know exactly what you mean. I know you are probably sick and tired of the whole “it selfish!, Don’t do it shit.” so i’m going to say that but w/out saying that. I know all this “oh get over it the same shit happens to me” crap is annoying as fuck so i won’t say that either. What i will say is, if you’re gone, what happens to poor danielle? If your gone, what happens to all of your friends who see that? you saw what happened to you when your friend did it. Do you really want that effect on someone else? Suicide is a chain link. i’m not gonna lie and say it will get better, because, chances are, it won’t. but after reading this, do you really want to die?
Wow Sean,
this post is from seven years ago. Back in 2009 I was a young buck at 20 years old. I hope you’re doing better now. I hope you’re still alive. Coincidence, i just met a guy named sean, same spelling, who helped me fix my cpu. If you ever check back in to this site just know some rando from canada hopes you’re doin better.