well, i really dont know why im still living, ive had enough of this fucking world, i figured that out when i was 7.
saw my friend hanging from a rope and dangling from the ceiling, worst thing ive ever seen in my life, and every single day from that point on, ive always wondered why did he do it? it seemed like a good idea to me, it really does, ive even tried it before. well i did once, but the thing i was hanging off of just broke and i fell ot the ground, and i layed there for about an hour just crying and shit, but im finished with the crying now. i think ive ran out, now that my fuckin dad took up this habbit of beating me, for shit that wasnt even my fault. my parents always expect the worst of me, and it fuckin angers me. but i do have one good thing in my life, my girlfriend danielle. she is my only true love and yet, i still want to just kill myself, i tried some websites, and some phone opperators, but the people who i got were of another ethnicity and tried to offer me an advertaisment, so that REALLY made me want to just fuckin slit my wrists right there, it hurts but w/e, id rather feel pain than nothing at all.